The Aces & Deuces Of Life

Wall Street Mania

2010-10-09T23:20:00.002+01:00

Wall Street is a Must watch!

Being one of the best movies of all time, Wall Street gave us an the insight into the mind of Gordon Gekko and the great but yet opportunistic minds of financial world giants.

However in Wall Street; Money Never Sleeps, it showed us the more humane side of Gekko.

However Gekko will also be Gekko, always having a trick or two up his sleeves.

What i really liked about this movie was how realistic everything was. Down to the very detail of crisis at its peak. Eventhough with the change of names we still know who they are referring to. With a flick of events and motives, Wall Street; Money Never Sleeps is what the world is today.

This movie opened my eyes to the talents of Shia LaBeouf. His portrayal was sheer emotional and award worthy. His expressive eyes showed his determination and dedication to this film.

Michael Douglas was of course very Gekko. He owned the role.

As for Carey Mulligan, I've always like this girl. She grows on me as she grows. She is an actress that truly deserves an oscar.

Rate: 4.5/5 Stars.

When the Bull came crashing down

2010-10-09T23:05:00.000+01:00

I have been having the best 3 weeks of my life. For once, I loved what I was studying. It wasn't just plain reading and facts crunching. This was actually what I'm really interested in. Having read the book" Too Big Too Fail" just makes everything so intriguing and fascinating. What ever I learnt in lectures helped me further understand what actually went wrong in wall street 08. From lectures to this book, and back from this book to lectures, it fits perfectly like a puzzle.

If I were not doing this course I might have found this book meticulously dry. But it clearly wasn't.

Too Big Too Fail is a perfect example of a textbook translated into a novel for all ages. Anyone along the streets can pick this book up and be fully owned by it. The Economist had it right; "It is just too good to put down". Andrew Ross Sorkin gives his readers an uncontaminated view of what happened in Wall Street during the faithful year of 2008. No elaborated frills and sugar coating of opinions. Just plain action. He carefully, intricately and systematically laid out the series of events that unfolded before every key players' eyes in the 08 debacle. Sorkin invited his readers into the world of such complicated politics but yet made it so irresistably easy to be absorbed by it. He gave the book its own voice and soul. With so many key characters of such diversity and personality, Sorkin made it effortless. He mindfully opened the secret doors and gave the public access into the backstage of the modern age Great Depression where some of the most powerful and influential men played. Like a classic thriller fictional novel; Too Big Too Fail is filled with anticipation, excitement and drama.

However the only difference is,

It is not Fiction.

A Change of Courage.

2010-10-09T22:18:00.003+01:00

Medics come home tired but satisfied after a long day's work. They love what they are doing and are always eager to learn more than what is required. They yearn to save lives and are always fascinated with every new procedure they get conquer. They can't stop thinking of the day they would graduate and become real doctors.

But i can.

Why must I be denied of the joy and anticipation to start working. Why must I be the one who is deprived of the love and passion in what I'm doing.

Clearly, with feelings like these; I'm just not doing what I like, talk about love. I too want to be excited of entering the working world. I too want that anticipation, enthusiasm and passion for their careers. Hence, I have decided to take fate in my own hands.

I never really wanted this since the beginning. The reason was simply, I couldn't think of anything else to do. Deep down in me, I always knew i preferred arts to science. Science was something I grew up with, something I could do, not something I adored. I was too afraid to launch myself into a career of business or finance. Chemical bondings and life cells were my basics. I had no idea what accounts were besides the bank account I owned. Thus I succumbed to my coward-ness, the opinions and the urges of others. Getting a degree in medicine and becoming a doctor was a safety net. Not forgetting it came with prestige and praises. I allowed the fame hungry, prestige whore get the better of me.

I was always fascinated with the idea of going corporate. When everyone in Med School was thinking of what field of specialization they were interested in; I wanted to do pharmaceutical corporate. Kinda far fetched isn't it?

I wanna speak well, flaunt my confidence in a 3 piece suit and live a life of a high flying "corporate-er".

"Who loves what they are doing?" That is what most people will say.

"Why waste 3 years of your life? All you need is another 2 years and it is done!"

"You can think of other options then"

I say these 3 years have not been a waste. It gave me 3 years of experience that money can't buy. I gained 3 years worth of friends, 3 years worth of knowledge and I know my time is up. What makes anyone so sure by the time I'm out with a medical degree in another 2 years I would start from scratch and launch into something else. What if I'm stuck with doing medicine then?

If I want a change, I'll do it while I still have the courage and love to do so. What if I lose the desire in 5 years and will be stuck doing what I hate doing for the rest of my life? I'll do it now!

The decision is final. I'm withdrawing from Medicine and launching into Accounting and Finance.

Suits

2010-08-12T00:31:00.006+01:00

I promised something less depressing and I shall deliver. It is high time I salvage myself and make an escape from that depressing rut. I want to heal! Thus I shall.

Suits. I have been wanting to do a post on this for eons. But my mind has been constantly corrupted with ill feelings and disappointments for the past few months.

There I was, in my casual and comfy, flight worthy plain tee with a cardigan and jeans, waiting for the Heathrow Inter-terminal Express train, transferring from Terminal 1 to Terminal 4; partially day dreaming and reading my trusty novel. The train to Terminal 4 was in 15 minutes. I withdrew myself from my novel and threw my gaze into space. Travelers on business, leisure walked past me and parents with their children heading for summer holidays trotted by. The train heading for Terminal 3 arrived. Passengers got on and off the platform, and there it caught my attention; most men are in suits.

Dressed in their Armanis, Pradas, Zegnas or Marks and Sparks, they were all suited up. Fine pin stripes to dark single shades. All perfectly matched their crisply clean white dress shirts and immaculately shined leather shoes. Regardless of whatever hairstyle they donned; short and neat, carefully messed hair or perfectly coiffed, they all had one thing in common; they looked exquisite.

What is it that makes a man look so good in suits? There is just something sexy about it. Even 007 got away with a license to kill in them; killing all the ladies. You can appropriately wear it to a business meeting, wedding invitation or funeral procession. Take the tie off and pair it with a pair of jeans and you are ready for a night out in town. If you feel a lil adventurous and chic, equip yourself with the more casual brother of the suit; the blazer and you are ready for a weekend at the Hamptons or just downtown.

Milo Ventimiglia looking positively charming in this summery beige Armani Collezioni.

Not everyone could pull off a suit. Fashion these days has convinced metrosexual men/ men with taste/ vain men/ men who takes care of their appearances / gay men, that suits should fit you like a glove. Gone are the days where suits make you look like a wannabe quarterback on field with gigantic shoulder paddings. Suits these days are meant to make you look sleek and fresh of the runway.

No one wears them better than the King of suits himself; Tom Ford. Tom Ford is one perfect example of a man who revolutionized the way men wear suits. He dons a suit everywhere he goes; promotional appearances, interviews, luncheons, parties, even when he is busy directing a movie!

Tom Ford substituting a tie with scarf, toning down the formality.

3 piece suits look amazing these days.


I'm no big fan of Brad Pitt, in fact i hate his infidelities; but i have to admit he looks good in a 3 piece. The guy knows how to dress it up.

Tom Ford's latest collection. Velvet, plaids, wool. All looking fineee.

Josh Duhamel and Shia Le Bouff gracing the premier of Transformers; suited up.

I don't like Double breasted suits, but John Cho rocked this.

One day in the future, I will be that man who is all donned up in that immaculately tailored suit, fitted with a crisply white shirt, paired with my perfectly shined leather shoes, living a life a corporateer.

2010-08-08T07:48:00.002+01:00

hmmm...i should start sharing something less depressing..hmmm..

Help

2010-08-08T07:25:00.000+01:00

I was told by a good friend of mine; she noticed I've lost confidence in almost everything, especially in self-confidence. To her, this happened after I left the country. Contrary to common beliefs, I have lost my self esteem rather than gaining more after stepping outside the peninsular. Lets just leave it as 2010 has not been particularly kind to me.

I have started my healing process, and to date, I have made progress. I've learnt to accept my fate and move forward. This is easier said than done. I've told myself, I will accept this and work towards getting through this one year, but I have yet to face to music. For the past month or two, following the ugly scenarios unfolded before me, I have hid myself from all public appearances, making only necessary ones and ones that wouldn't bother me. The past few months indeed aided my healing process but it too sheltered me from all i deem "harmful". It has cocooned me in a solitary shell. This solitude has subconsciously pushed me into a deeper level of emptiness and hollowness. It has erased my goals, blurred my vision and vanished my hopes. Like a black hole, sucking the light out of that glimmer of hope, a harbinger of catastrophe. Suddenly now, I have to break open my shell and return to face reality; with no goals, no vision..no hope.

On the outside, it is all gravy and joy. Filled with smiles and sparkles. However it is always short lived. When the sun sets, the moon rises and the light goes out; darkness and depression comes out to play. Only then do i know my reality. My uncertain reality.

I am trying really hard to heal. Only when I'm truly healed can I laugh at my mistakes and failure. But now, I still can't.

Everytime I'm reminded of my failure, my mind sinks into depression, my heart retrieves into that dark, lonely corner where I find solitude. A corner that only brings disaster and destroys hope.

I need help.

Help.

This is me.

2010-07-13T23:54:00.003+01:00

7am is approaching and I have yet to get my sleep.

Sleeping these days has been a task. Gone were the days where sleeping was a luxury. It is now nothing but a nightmare.

It is the moments before one falls asleep, the moment where you feel the comfort of your pillow, warmth of your duvet and softness of the bed; that haunts me. These moments send me shrieking for salvation. The pillow becomes a manifestation of confusion, the duvet heats up like a boiler and the soft bed disintegrates and turns dull.

Like a sanctuary of calmness; moments before you fall asleep are suppose to engulf your thoughts, sending your mind into emptiness and lightness. This is the time when your mind anticipates its desired and deserved rest; a time where it thinks of nothing, sending your whole body into a motion of calmness and serenity. Like a cocoon; your body, mind and soul is surrounded with silence and ultimate relaxation.

However this is not my case.

It is the sudden emptiness that bizarrely sends my mind into a field of wild fire. Activating every corner of my brain, drowning me with emotions, memories and hypothetical situations. It swallows my sanity, tatters my serenity, increases its grip on my aching heart and rips my healing scars open.

I want to heal. I want to move on. But the very thought of what the uncertain future beholds frightens me to my very core.

I am a walking billboard of failure and will always be branded as one.

I will recover, but I will never truly heal.

My confidence and emotions will forever be handicapped.

This will not define my existence. But now, at least now;

This is me..

People

2010-07-07T14:43:00.005+01:00

My life has been easy. What ever I wanted, what ever i needed; necessary or unnecessary, I got it. Even until today, where my life is in turbulence and such a dilapidated state, I can proudly say I am blessed. The joys and triumphs in my life overshadow the sorrows and sadness. Compared to so many individuals trotting around the globe, my life has been easy.

I Humbly Thank the Almighty for it. If i would make a list of things to be thankful of, it would be never ending. However the 2 priceless and most precious gifts He showered me with are; 1) a loving and supportive family, and 2) a bunch of caring and sincere friends.

My parents are no saints but they sure are angels. Not only have they put a roof over my head, fed me and put clothes over my back, *ahem* expensive clothes *ahem* =D they bore with my endless supply of setbacks. In fact, in times of turbulence and depression, they felt my sorrows more than the main character involved; me. They do not deserve these headaches and worries. I see them aging before my eyes; no thanks to me piling stress on them, and my heart aches of guilt and remorse. I thank them for picking me up when i fall, supporting me when I lose my balance and holding me when I limp. Lastly, I thank them for giving a loving and supportive sibling to share my entire life with and someone who spices up my life!

You only know your true friends in times of trouble. I have never given this statement much thought. Little did I know i am so truly blessed with so many of them. Deep with humiliation, I dodged so many of them; I still do. But when I meet them, they too so cleverly dodged my topic of embarrassment and yet able to express their sincerity and care. Without uttering a word, they came, gushing and oozing with love and support. They made coming back so easy and fun. They are my family away from family. They keep me sane when I'm insane. They give me hope when I'm in despair. They give me joy when i am in sorrow.

Do I deserve them? I don't know. Am i thankful to have them? A thousand times yes.

I must have done something immaculate my past life to be blessed with these angels surrounding me.

Someone Called; My Brother..

2010-07-03T00:18:00.003+01:00

The cobbled streets, hilly roads, heritage buildings, road signs and the sunlight seem foreign to me. In this place I once so eagerly yearned to be, a place where I poured in my warmth and made it my sanctuary, my home..has suddenly alienated me.

The moment I felt her pores beneath my soles; I knew She was different. Perhaps it is not her that has changed, but me.

I took a deep breath in. Her light summer breeze felt heavy, cold and harsh.

Her warm golden sunlight graced my skin. It felt more like the fires of hell.

I sat there, gazing out through the windows; staring into emptiness, feeling lost.

The cosy humble door that greeted me for the past year seem imposing and it intimidates me.

The streets I once strolled everyday; filled my veins with fear, overwhelming me with shame and humiliation.

The corridors that filled me with pride and confidence now freezes me with familiar faces.

I couldn't breathe. Every breath I drew felt corrosive. Every minute spent was agony.

But you... you gave me back my smile. You made coming "home" bearable. When I heard them say; "didnt you tell him anything?" at once I knew you were my true friend. Only then did I know how blessed I was. I never noticed the subtle responses and gestures you made. Everything looked so easy, so sincere, so genuine...so...normal. It made me feel normal.

You made it easy for me to breathe again, you made it easy for me to walk again.

You made my life easy to live again.

I never say this enough, I've never said this to you in person, but i shall say this in my prayers;

Thank You for being my friend, my family...my brother.

Now and Forever

2010-06-30T17:53:00.005+01:00

Aimless, lost, tattered, robbed, wounded, numbed..is the exact mood.

I was a man with an aim, a destiny.. a contented joyful demeanor. However, a few lines from a fateful letter robbed me of my sanity and stability. I am now a man in a familiar yet foreign land. A state so surreal yet real. I was ripped off my determination and a shattered heart replaced. My pride trampled and bruised; leaving a permanent scar. A scar that will haunt me forever. Like a diamond, how ever its clarity and colour shines, it only takes one flaw to devalue it. A defect will always be a defect.

Was it the lack in passion? Or is this a punishment for a delusional sin I so wished it was not.

Why? Why hoist me up so high and make me take this great fall. A fall so disgraceful and humiliating . If this was not for me, why not tell me earlier? Why slam my doors of opportunities and alternatives shut so fast and hard? Leaving me in despair and sorrow. Is this the way I should be rooted and taught humility? If it is then You have made your point crystal.

In this hard, cold exterior lies a boy of insecurities. A self esteem built by made- beliefs. A foundation of confidence made from sloppy unfinished concrete. It is all a facade. Like a scale, it only takes a few weights to tip it and everything comes crumbling down. If this is the motive, then you have succeeded.

You sent a messenger to enlighten me, but I'm not sure I'm convinced. It is a whole new concept with an entirely new understanding. I'm sceptical, yes I am. But what is being said is true and logical. This should set me free, but why do I still feel trapped?

Like the domino's effect, one collapsing after another; My life is left in ruins

I pray I find my answers soon.

Perhaps this is karma.

Ipoh, Land of Gastronomy

2010-04-30T01:58:00.001+01:00

Ipoh; a place i took my first step,

Ipoh; a platform i took my first fall,

Ipoh heard me utter my first "mum-mum",

Ipoh witnessed my first punishment,

Ipoh witnessed my first obsession,

Ipoh saw me through puberty,

Ipoh documented my first failure, my first achievement,

Ipoh a place my parents decided to build their home,

Ipoh houses my home.

Ipoh guided me through my first 18 years of life,

Ipoh is where my history starts,

Ipoh, a small town I call home.

"Mum-Mum" was my very first word. My parents were thrilled, thinking i was calling out to my mom. Unfortunately and sadly they were wrong. This toddler was calling "mum-mum" whilst frantically gesturing towards food. I guess this is what Ipoh does to your kids. It is all about food and nothing but it.

I was hopping across the world wide web and stumbled upon this blog; Motormouth From Ipoh- A Malaysian Food Blog and nostalgic memories and emotions came flooding in. I miss Ipoh. I miss what Ipoh has to offer. It is not how she gastronomically satisfies me, but the implications and significance it comes with. To me, they are not just mere delicious mouth-watering substances that one consumes. They are what i grew up with. They were there when i had a heart warming dinner with my family. They were there when i shared a good laugh with my friends. They are the ones that brings US together.

Ipoh, a haven close to my heart.

Cook with Love..and death..

2010-04-16T23:45:00.009+01:00

Introducing Edinburgh's Hottest diner in town!

Maeve's and Nick's Diner

Experimental food by non-professional, award discredited cooks.

"A heart warming eatery owned by 2 good friends whose amateur culinary skills inspired them to use the general public as their guinea pigs! " ....Idiot's Guide to Eating, 2010

We offer you Edinburgh's first commercial experimental cooking. We cook from the heart but we don't guarantee your safety. Eating at one's own risk is our punch line. We strive to serve your dishes warm but we cant ensure it. We use the freshest ingredients that we can find, however never ask how we obtained them. Don't ask, Don't tell is our policy.

Thus, come Visit us anytime!

Meet the chefs themselves;

Maevis Tan; professional Taster

Nicholas Yeap ; Professional Stirrer.

Chefs at their best..

Maeve's and Nick's Diner only operates via appointments and reservations. We choose and pick of customers and place them into our list of exclusive clientele. So don't bother calling us if you are a nobody. We charge by the minute.

Medicine For Depression

2010-04-07T21:36:00.004+01:00

What would you do in times of depression? What is the remedy for loneliness?

There is only one answer; hunt down a friend, get a car, fill yourself up with adrenaline and get started on a spontaneous round-town excursion!

Friend: Maevis Tan. CHECKED
Car: Sister's. CHECKED
Spontaneous round-town excursion: ANYWHERE in Edinburgh. CHECKED
ensure to be equipped with a trusty map

It was one of those depressing, low days of mine.
However a little bit of enthusiasm, adventure and a friend did the trick.
The company played a major role and Maevis Tan provided ample of it!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Destination: Edinburgh Botanic Gardens
Description: Afternoon Tea.

"Welcome to the Edinburgh Botanic Gardens!"

our afternoon tea set.
Excellent ambience. Disappointing food. Amazing Company

We were outta coins, hence we decided to purchase this lil cutie;
1. as remembrance, 2 (the main reason) to get some change.

my source of company
The beloved Maevis Tan..RAAWWRRRR glasses....urghh..
wasn't in the mood to look good..

A friend in need is a friend indeed..

A Venetian Getaway

2010-04-03T13:34:00.011+01:00

5 chums, 1 Hiro the hippopotamus, 1 destination, 1 weekend.
A recipe for 3 days of absolute fun and adventure.

The day was Friday, 27th March 2010.
5 + 1 adventurers; 2+1 from Edinburgh, 1 from Leicester, 1 from London and 1 from Manchester, met at London Gatwick Airport for a flight bound for Venice.

The rest is history. Let the pictures do the talking!

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

The Chums;
Yeen, The Canadian Filipino from Leicester

Keng and Hiro the Hippopotamus aka. +1, The Japanese from Edinburgh

Nick the Hong Kong-er from Edinburgh

Shing the Korean from London

lastly, Phua the Taiwanese from Manchester

=)

2010-03-16T02:11:00.003Z

"be a friend, be a person, find a friend, look for a connection, be half a person and let the other complete you."

This is why i believe.

2010-03-07T01:55:00.008Z

I was having a discussion with a friend with regards to religion; the existence of God. He is an atheist and I am the Catholic.

He had his points and I had a duty to uphold (to a certain extent; defend) my faith. His points were strong and I was nearly left scrambling for what was left with what i merely had to say.

To me religion is something personal. It is the relationship between God and yourself.
He, my friend, thinks religion is holding us back and curbing us; confining us with something we cannot see nor grasp, a state of mind that most non-believers feel that all is man made. To them; We believers believe what we want to believe and it is all played and hyped up by our minds.

He had his points. I couldn't say much because i personally feel everyone feels the Almighty differently. It defers from one to another. One's relationship with the Lord is unique, and everyone experiences His presence differently.

I have felt Him in more ways than one, but others might say this is just me making myself believe so. But like i said earlier..I BELIEVE, because I just know. It is a hard concept to comprehend if you have not experienced it. No one will believe you when you say it out loud and one cannot use logic to explain it.

I don't blame them, cause if you dont believe you just don't, and i respect that.

Alright i'm beating around the bush and creating loop/trap holes for myself.

Regardless, after that conversation, i just felt something was bothering me. I did not stand up for my beliefs as i should have. I have a strong faith but weak in knowledge and lack in confidence in this field.

I picked up the bible, randomly flipped a page and started reading.. and this was what i read;

When Jesus saw the crowds, He went up to the mountain.
He sat down and His disciples gathered around Him.
Then He spoke and began to teach them:
Fortunate are those who are poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Fortunate are those who mourn, they shall be comforted,
Fortunate are the gentle, they shall possess the land,
Fortunate are those who hunger and thirst for justice, for they shall be satisfied.
Fortunate are the merciful, for they shall find mercy.
Fortunate are those with a pure heart, for they shall see God.
Fortunate are those who work for peace, they shall be called children of God.
Fortunate are those who are persecuted for the cause of justice, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Fortunate are you, when people insult you and persecute you and speak all kinds of evil against you because you are my followers.
Be glad and joyful, for great reward is kept for you in God.

Matthew 5:1-12

This is why i believe. I have experienced Him in ways i cannot clearly explain. All i hope for is; You respect that i have beliefs and i respect your beliefs.

I just want to make it clear that i have no intentions of converting nor instilling my beliefs in you, but i just want understanding, respect and harmony.

(a tribute to waylunn for making this possible. without this bible, this would not be possible)

Sheer Randomness

2010-02-18T23:54:00.003Z

I'm here sitting on bed, nicely nestled between the warmth of my duvet and pillows. But here's the problem; I am absolutely clueless on what i want to write tonight. I have so many thoughts flying left, right and center in my mind. Some of them stacked up to the brim my head; in random order, some just sitting at the corner collecting dust. I'm currently going through, what i feel is a mental breakdown. Nothing is sorted in there, nothing is organized. Everything is troubling me; or rather i find fault in everything. I'm displeased with everything that is happening around me.

For starters, this has not been my best week. I started the week on a wrong footing, missing my bedside teaching because i was down with a combination of general malaise, fever and bloated tummy, and it was down hill all the way from there.

I've lost my gung ho groove of studying. I have been so keen for the past few weeks; reading up on lectures before attending them, making notes and feeling excited for all my bedside teachings and what nots. However this week was just wasted, down the gutter like a bowling ball hitting no pins.
It is friday today, and i felt i have achieved nothing.

1. My portfolio deadline is due next monday and i have not started on it.
2. I have an Occupational Lung Disease lecture tomorrow and i have not read up on it.
3. I was suppose head the library today and study, but left after an hour; making a stupid excuse that my contact lenses were dry (technically they were. i could have taken it out and walked home with blur vision but i insisted on coming home..excuses).
4. I was suppose to impress my registrar during ward rounds but i failed terribly; making a fool outta myself instead.
5. My SSC3 session today was crap.
6. I generally feel i'm fat. I keep telling myself i would hit the gym tomorrow but tomorrow always seem eons away and when it arrives, i would just procrastinate and push the idea of gym-ing aside.
7. I keep checking stupid random sites, my facebook and other accounts for useless purposes;wasting precious time.

...and the list goes on..

what the hell am i doing?what the hell is happening to me?

Random thoughts; i hope i wont get male pattern baldness. My hair is my crowning glory. Well technically, my dad and all my uncles do not suffer from this, maybe for once something good would happen to me. i hope this trait is passed on to me, if not what is there to life?

..melodramatic..

CNY at LV's

2010-02-02T23:15:00.005Z

It was a snowy and cold morning but nothing could stop us from having a night of absolute fun and glamour.

My sister and her boyfriend, V-liem, were invited to a special event held at Louis Vuitton Edinburgh.

In conjunction with this year's Chinese New Year, LV Edinburgh decided to organize a cocktail party to welcome the year of the tiger in style; inviting only their Chinese clients.

The night was filled with free flow of champagne and finger food.

But this was not the highlight of MY night!

My sister decided to treat me to something even more spectacular
(like the night itself wasn't enough).

She got me my first LV (of anything!).
It was a 21st + 22nd birthday gift. She got me cuff links for my 21st birthday but insisted that it was a Christmas present for the year before.
Well who am i to argue and decline such a precious gift?
:D

I was never a fan of LV's, but this was an exception. It was love at first sight. The look, touch, down to the very scent was just right. I love the colour and intricate design; giving it a really "lux" and chic appearance.
Once i tried it on, there was no turning back.
I had to take it back home with me :D

we were one of the earliest to arrive and last to leave!

Neil Stewart, the store manager and gentleman who made
"E&V"
on E&V's travel bag tag.

"thank you kache for such an amazing gift!"

"thank you V for such an amazing night"

Realization

2010-01-28T21:26:00.001Z

..Turning over a new leaf..

What won't kill you, makes you stronger.

ECSM

2010-01-28T01:42:00.006Z

What is the remedy for a shattered spirit?
What is the potion to numb failures and hopelessness?
Milk and Eggs in its rawest form are the concoction for hungover spells,
If so, is liquor the secret recipe for depression?

A friend with a willing shoulder is what everyone needs in times of sadness
However, not all friends can play this role.
Only the one who knows you best can help you pass this period of pain.
Only the one closest to you can ease the route to recovery.

Only
You
can make my gloomy day sunny.

The most painful part is not the mood i'm in, but it is that you are not by my side.
Everything was so free and easy in the past.
You were always a phone call away when i needed someone to share my joy, you were always a text away when i needed a shoulder to cry on.
But now, things are different.
Distance makes the heart grown fonder, and i miss those times we spent together.

All i want to say is;

Thank you

Who I Aspire To Be.

2010-01-27T01:39:00.002Z

He's the man.

Tom Ford.

Enough said.

future?happy?contented?35?

2010-01-26T01:34:00.009Z

So much has happened over Christmas, and I have so much to blog bout. However, tonight I only have one subject in mind i would like to put in words.

Over the weekend, Vanessa made a trip up north to Edinburgh to visit. She being here was just Fine and Fantastic, but i shall leave that for another day to tell.

Over the course of a lazy Sunday afternoon tea, we were discussing;
Where would you see yourself at the age of 35? What situation in life would make you contented and happy at that age?

The question went around the table and when it reached me, I said the first thing on my mind; I would like to have a Jet Setter lifestyle. Houses everywhere around the world and private jets to whisk me off to my private beach at the Bahamas for some margaritas and Milan for my essentials. Obviously, with this answer i was gunned down like there was no tomorrow.

I weren't answering the question. The discussion wasn't about material wealth or richness. It was about what in life that makes you contented and happy. As how Vanessa puts it; What is that final puzzle in life that would make you go "I'm happy" when you sit down and look at your life. There is no doubt there are people who strongly feel; dollar signs, land grants and share ownership certificates would make them contented with life. They would only be truly, purely and undeniably happy when there is no headaches over who puts food on the table or am I able to service my mortgage. No sleepless baby worries nights and their education, No shrink bills to pay. I suppose these are every adult's worries, the part and parcel of life.

This time, the question is; what is beyond money matters; what is "that" that makes you contented and happy, materialism aside?

This really got me thinking.

What makes me happy? What do I wanna wake up to every morning and thank God for it? how do I want my life to be when i'm 35?

And this is my answer;

A typical weekend morning. I wanna wake up to someone I love and cherish. Someone that greets me in the eye everyday and reminds me of how very lucky I am. We will be comfortable in each other's arms and company; the scent, the habits and the gaze.

We are in no rush to get out of bed. It is a lazy weekend morning. We take our time to slowly drag each other up to prepare for the day. The lazy weekend morning, could be a lazy weekend afternoon. We'll have a simple breakfast on the island in our kitchen or brunch at a side walk cafe; sharing a newspaper and inter-changing our cups of coffee and tea. We'll sit back and watch the world go by; families having a day out, couples walking down the street, street performers at the end of the block, fashionistas battling with their shopping bags and maybe a little fashion in crime that we could critique on somewhere.

We'll take slow walks after brunch; walking aimlessly, just enjoying each others company. Like anyone in love, we would take joy in everything the other person does; how he or she smiles, laughs, walks, down to the very last detail of their breathing pattern.

Then of course there has to be some intellectual stimulation. We'll discuss about everything we are passionate about; current issues, the financial situation, sports, our families and of course not forgetting; us.

On our way back home, we'll stop by the grocer's to stock up for the week and have tiny fun debates along the way on what we should eat tonight, who cooks and who will do the dishes?who will throw out the trash? etc. we'll be pointing fingers at each other denoting the times where no one did the dishes. However, solutions will some how creep in and the debate comes to an end with tickle and laughter.

The late afternoon would be spent in the kitchen; both of us whipping something up for dinner. Our dishes might not compliment each other, but we'll have a good laugh about it over dinner because we know what's important is we compliment each other.

There wont be any specific evening plans. Anything could be installed for the evening; we might take the car out for a spin to enjoy the night lights or we might just catch a movie;at home or at the cinema. We might treat ourselves to a few glasses of wine at a lounge or just have coffee, tea and dessert at a our favourite restaurant. We can have bubble baths together or we can just have a simple evening of cuddling and enjoying each others company.

In terms of our financial situation; we'll share the burden together. we dont necessarily need to be rich and lead a life of a jet setter. We are just comfortable; doing things that we like to do.
Not forgetting, there will be no family dramas and every single family member is happy and healthy!

Now, that is the kind of life i wanna lead/ would be leading when i am 35.

extended family?

2010-01-19T23:10:00.000Z

Family is an institute that everyone can rely on.
They will never turn you down when you need a shoulder to cry on, they will never turn a deaf ear if you need someone to rant to.
They are always there to share your ups and downs, your fears, your paranoia.
I have never truly treasured their existence in the past. I've taken them for granted and the feeling guilt doesn't even begin to describe the way i'm feeling now.

I sure do treasure them deeply now.

But that is not the point of this post!

There are just some family members, i say SOME, that you know, deep inside,
they are just trouble. They have Catastrophe spelled with a capital C written all over them.

There will be politics in every institution;
Countries, Corporate firms, Charity Organization, Societies, Clubs
..anywhere that harbours hated, nurses bickery, cultures jealousy..
there will be politics.
So why not a family of a large network?
It sounds like a perfect breeding ground of such nature!

hierarchy-check!
power struggle-check!
jealousy-check!
money matters-check!

guess what, we just made a perfect checklist for disaster.

it just amazes me how some people lack humility, kindness, love and the sheer decency of cordiality.
Here you are thinking that you should give them a chance,
a chance for them to prove you wrong, for all the "wrong" judgements you passed on them,
and
you genuinely feel bad for doing so.
So, one day you say to yourself;

"hey guess what, after all we are still family!How ever disfunctional we are; WE ARE STILL FAMILY!I'm in the wrong for judging books by their cover. I'll take the first step to unity and peace"

So you take the first step of kindness.
You allow yourself to open up to them, giving them the benefit of doubt.
Convincing yourself to Love them.

But what do you get in return?
Pure evil, bitterness and grudge!
At first you tell yourself, alright maybe he or she is just trying to be jovial or comical, cheeky if you must say.
Twice and you think "Okie!, that might just be a way of saying I enjoy your company", but when the third time occurs, the feeling of soreness creeps in. Trust me it doesnt stop at the number 3!
Just when you are warming up to them, making yourself vulnerable, they start the dagger fight! ALL aimed right for your heart!
every single syllable is filled with sheer bitterness, anger, bitchiness, disgust and jeolousy!
every single word is oozing with evilness, all out to tear that vulnerable heart that you just opened up.

you call this family?

some people say; Never judge a book by its cover. i beg to differ. From the first time i laid my eyes on you, my gut told you were this bitter little thing that holds no humility nor decency. what you lack in basic manners doesnt even start to describe what you lack in character and guidance. Your arrogance and conceit and selfish disdain for the feelings of other makes me so sick, it smells worst than the stench of dying rotting flesh.

It was wrong of me to judge you, but you sure proved me right the first time and cemented my ideas of you.

you disgust me!
you bring the word filthy and arrogance to a whole new level!

I would say i hope your pathetic soul rots in hell,
but i would myself if i would actually verbalized it.
Hence, I shant succumb to your lowness and unclassy manners.

All i could say is I would pray for your poor soul that you would find meaning in life!

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Dont get me wrong. This does not paint the picture of what a family truly is. I personally have experienced what a pure and uncontaminated meaning of family is and i have good and fond memories of it.

Some people are just not worth me regarding them as family
and when i wanted to accept them,
they treated me in thus manner.

I am glad i'm not in their position, cause boy!
WONT I WANNA BE THEM? *urgh*gag*

it is times like these i thank those whose shoulders i've been crying on, during all those times of sadness for the past 22 years, those whose company i rejoice in when i needed a celebration of joy.

Extended family members?what can i say...It is times like these that makes me appreciate those closest to me, my nuclear family; those who nurtured me and those who stuck with me for all those times.
It is times like these that makes me wanna run to my parents and grandparents, Hug them, and tell them;

I Love You.
Thank You for making me who I am today.

Waiting In Anticipation..

2010-01-05T18:10:00.002Z

I'm in desperate need of a new camera
and
daddy has announced he'll get me one for my 22nd.

camera?armani?

camera?prada?

camera?burberry?

camera?cash?

camera?new car?
(how i wish this was actually on the list..sobs)

camera?D&G?
.
.
.
.
CAMERA!!!!

apparently, it is suppose to arrive tomorrow.

I cant wait!

anticipating its arrival
=)

Home is always where my heart will be.

2010-01-04T17:52:00.010Z

Thursday, January 7th 2010,
the day i say goodbye to Malaysia..yet again.

It has been 3 weeks but it felt like 3 days.

The list goes on, on what i miss most bout home;

particularly

Ipoh.

The 3 main Fs; Family, Friends, Food.

Family.
The word itself is self explanatory. Everyone can abandon and desert you, but not your family. This is the very source of warmth and love =)

Friends.
Hanging out and reminiscing bout old days is what we do best. Filling each other up with what's going in our lives is a way of saying;

" you still matter to me"
&
"i still care bout your well-being".

They just make your night.

Food.
Another self explanatory word.
To me, food is what brings that little sparkle in your eye.
The subtle sense of satisfaction everyone conveniently pays no attention to when it occurs.
You feel it when you whiff in the aroma and leaves just before you start chewing.
It puts a smile on your face for a split second, before you take your second mouthful,
..and the cycle repeats.
Food. what joy it brings.
Euphoria.

Home, is where my Heart will always be..

Till June 2010, GoodBye Malaysia; my home..

What Hong Kong has to offer..delicacies

2009-12-31T07:08:00.005Z

If your palate is craving for something spectacular and authentic, Hong Kong is the place to fulfill your cravings.

Hong Kong, a place where you will never go hungry, unless you are truly and undeniably broke.
Walk down any street in Hong Kong, and you will never fail to find restaurants offering Hong Kong's best delicacies,
ranging from; pastries to noodle stands, quaint coffee outlets to tea houses, authentic Cantonese cuisine to fine dining Teo Chew extravanganza.
Hong Kong is a haven for those who love to indulge in food.

Here are some of the places i frequent and indulge in when i'm in the vicinity;

Head Down to Wan Chai For Fish and Beefball Noodles for breakfast

Train up to ShaTin for some Pigeons for lunch

Relax at China Tee House after a long day of shopping in Central

Indulge in some authentic Cantonese dinner at Wing Wah's

Head off for a Scrumptious Chew Chow Supper, off Times Square

Lastly, stock up on some chinese confectionaries.

She's the One

2009-12-25T14:49:00.006Z

She changes ever so often, you would never know what is installed for those who visit her.

I have seen her so many times and yet i am still in awe with her intense spirit and vibrant nature. Never was it once i was bored when i'm in her company,
never was it once she disappointed me.

She captivated and bewitched me;
body and soul,
keeping me under her charm ever since my first hello.

true enough,
she had me at hello.

like a chameleon, she fools you;
thinking she will never change.
look closer and you would notice she's almost never the same compared to
the last time you laid eyes on her.

At a glance, you see no difference,
look deeper and you would know she has grown;
grown bigger and better.

However, one thing will never change;

my attraction towards her.

Wherever i go, i will always come back to you...

Hong Kong.

To my best friend, with love.

2009-12-17T02:25:00.003Z

Shit and confused is exactly how i feel right now.
I look back at pictures taken during happy times, and wonder what have i done wrong?

maybe i shouldn't have placed you high on the pedestal,
hence, when everything falls apart i wont feel so alone, betrayed and disappointed.

never in my life have i appreciated a friend so much.
maybe that was my mistake.
it is because of you, i've lost my confidante,
it is because of you i've lost trust in having someone to share my deepest thoughts.

i allowed myself to think you were my idol.
i admired your every aspect of life.
i took your word as the truth, your principles as virtues and thoughts as righteous.
little did i know, you are SELF righteous.

Others questioned my loyalty towards you, i gunned them down like a predator on a prey.
i blamed myself for whatever went wrong,
so i could take that fall for us.
i defended our friendship with bravery and determination.
i treated you like you were my king, and i am your servant.

never did i know, you were humouring me; taking me on a joy ride.
i was more of a jester than a soldier.
you kept me in your court as a joke,
while i took every attack that came your way.

I am hurt and that is the truth.
Hurt;
because someone i think so highly of can turn out to be a person of such character.

I am angry and that's a fact.
Angry;
at myself for allowing myself to open up to you.

i know you will never feel the way i feel. I knew it from day one i would appreciate this friendship more than you will.
To you, i'm dispensable, but to me; you are indispensable.

the hardest part is not to forgive but to live with this fact;
the fact that you are of such poor character.

will i still wanna carry on nurturing this friendship?
I dont know.
do i still appreciate what you had done for me?
Yes, a thousand times yes.
do i still love you?
Yes, i will always do.
could i live with myself being friends with you after such traumatic news?
I dont know.
will i start see the flawed side of you?
Most probably yes.
am i sad?
Most definitely yes.

i'm sad because i love you too much to let go..

East meets West, East and West, East or West?

2009-12-15T18:32:00.005Z

4 more days, and i'll be bound for home;
home is where my heart will always be..
(i should try making Edinburgh my home; thus i wont feel crappy all the time =S)

I use to complain bout the hot, humid weather back home. But now, i can't wait to breathe in that very..hot, humid..air. Spending nearly all my 21 years of life in the east, i never appreciated the (now to me) calming, soothing, temperate tropical weather.
Times where i need not worry about the temperature beyond my window.
Times where i don't need to ask;
how many layers should i put on my back today?,
should i bring the umbrella out tomorrow?,
what time is sunrise and sunset next week?,
should i on the heater or will it be too expensive?

All these questions!

i've always yearned to life in a four seasons country.
Every time i hear someone complaining bout the winter,
i'll be thinking to myself; what on earth is this chap blabbering bout?
he doesnt need to worry bout sweating through his formal wear, rushing for a meeting and yet afraid he'll perspire through his coat, looking like a pig upon reaching.
He can wear all these nice winter coats that makes him look chic and suave
(hide all the fats behind it).

why is he complaining?

Clearly i was being an idiot thinking like that, not knowing the true, unpolished implications one has to endure and face, living in an area where the the weather is uncertain;
sun, rain, wind, cold; all in a day, sometimes an hour.
A place where the temperature is so low, you just wanna be a polar bear everyday and hibernate at home.

i was ranting to a local just a few days back regarding how cold the morning was.
His response;

"REALLY? Wait for February."

i replied;

"what's in february?"
(aint that a stupid question)

To be fair, the people here are excellent.
They are warm and nice, very accommodating and always eager to help.
The place is mesmerizingly charming; the architecture, history and culture the city withholds.
Just an act of simply walking down the streets or across the bridge;
little do you know what literally lies beneath, who trod these cobble streets hundreds of years ago and whose carriage rode by centuries back.

They say; the brits are as cold as the weather.
Well the Scottish weather is colder, but the people are definitely as warm as the tropics.

hence, i'm not complaining bout the people, or the system, or the place,
but rather disturbed with its geographical position.

LOL

whereas back at home; Home will be a paradise, if only certain issues are cleared and settled
*cough*politics*cough*

Would i like to make this place my home in the future, with hopes of settling down?

i dont know.

i'm torn between 2 extremes.

my chums back in the east reckon i'll be the sort of character who loves the west and forgets the east.
at the moment, i dont know. until and unless the British Govt. grants me a working permit/visa in the future, my options are open.

As for now, i shall snuggle myself in the Christmas Spirit of the west
(something i will never get back at home),
wait for 4 days,
&
bask in the never ending supply of sun in the east.

Malaysia, Truly; Asia..

CC - Condescending Characters

2009-12-05T11:21:00.007Z

Destination : Manchester, United Kingdom
Time : 1130 hours

At long last, i could put Manchester on my "map of places i've been to".
I arrived yesterday at 7.30pm and was bugged by this freaking condescending wommon on the train..
#@$%^&*()
the conversation went like this;

(me sitting, minding my own business reading my Oxford Clinical Handbook)
(CW-condescending woman)

CW : Is that the new Clinical Handbook (stretches hand out, grabs my book, flips it with little care and damps her fingers with her saliva to flip the pages..YUCK!)
ME: Yeah...bla bla bla (trying to be nice and cordially agrees to her that the printing in the smaller version is too small)
CW: So which university are you from?
ME: I come from the north, University of Edinburgh.
CW: So you pay the international price for tuition fees?
ME: yeah..
CW: How much is it?
ME: (hessitating..) XXXX pounds.
CW: AND YOU CAN AFFORD IT?( eyes grow big and condescending tone)
ME: (felt really embarrassed and trying to be humble) No, i'm government sponsored :)
( yeah right)
CW: so why must they sponsor you? pulled some strings? (condescending condescending suspicious look, giving me the "you're guilty and convicted" look)
ME: NO!..bla bla bla ( me explaining how the process of getting a scholarship works; interviews, results..etc etc)
CW: What's your father's occupation?
ME: He is a teacher! BOTH my parents are teachers!
CW: Oh then there is no strings to pull then. They must have taught you alot! (see how she says " they must have thought you alot and not well?")
ME: Yes they did!
CW: so who paid for your first class tickets?( sniggers, looking and sounding freaking condescending )
ME: I paid them on my own. i stumbled upon cheap tickets online.

Please bear in mind, through out the whole conversation, she made NO ATTEMPT in smiling nor conversing in a nice tone!

STUPID FREAKING CONDESCENDING wommon, practically interrogated me the whole time from the moment she stepped into the train. Later i found out she's some doctor, hence she noticed my handbook and asked questions on it. My gut is telling me she just wants me and the other passengers around to know she's a doctor, hence taking interest in my handbook.

she saw the opportunity, seized it and ATTACKED!

poor innocent me, taken my surprise and was just blasted out of proportion!

cant believe the existence of characters like these! attacking on a poor innocent stranger to boost their own ego!

what is wrong with me?i keep bumping into condescending characters. you know who you are!

i shall be a good person and take it as a lesson learnt.

NEVER BE TOO FRIENDLY!

Cafe Cafe, Cafe Rouge

2009-11-28T21:12:00.004Z

Lunch at Cafe Rouge reminded me of dinner at Cafe Cafe.
The setting, the atmosphere, the mirrors, the chairs, tables, the everything..

Cafe Rouge reminded me so much of Cafe Cafe..
Not so much of the restaurant itself, but the company.

Here I am, sitting in Cafe Rouge; in the company of great friends.
The air was filled with laughter, fun, joy and warmth.

Rewind time a few months back to May;
There i was sitting in Cafe Cafe; in the company of great friends.
Air filled with laughter, fun, joy and warmth.

Dejavu.

It is just amazing how 2 different occasions, with 2 different crowds, with different conversation pieces, on opposite ends of the world, have so much in common;

The spirit,
The expressions,
The feeling,

The Duck Confit..

Cafe Rouge, Edinburgh

The interior of Cafe Cafe, Kuala Lumpur

I ordered the Duck Confit in honour of those people present at Cafe Cafe that fateful night.

A night i shall never forget.
Thank you Wynken for driving,
Thank you Blynken for the Company
Thank you Bro. Teoh for the laughter.

Memories That Are Not Meant To Be

2009-11-28T01:29:00.001Z

I'm here, sitting in the very room that drowns me with memories I love not to dwell in,
Memories that fills me with feelings of a very compelling nature.

Gone are those winter mornings I woke up to greet; hunting for your text,
Gone are those winter mornings I went scrambling for your words,
Gone are those mornings I patiently anticipated for your reply;
They might be history, but they are still vivid in my mind.

Every aspect of this room travels me back to those days;
The position of the untouched guitar, the bleached white table, the texture of the carpet beneath my feet,
The tassels of the drapes, down to the very layer of dust that gathers on the window frame;
Flushes my mind with these memories.

Were these fond memories? No.
Were these terrible, sad memories? No.
These are memories of mixed feelings.
Everything happened so fast; it came with the speed of lightning,
It traveled like a hurricane, it demolished and broke trust of the purest kind,
but it helped build a new foundation of love, it shattered hopes, but it rose the stature of understanding.

It was me; where the problem lied, it was me that was at fault.
I loved the attention but not the situation. I loved interest but not the investment.

What Made My Day

2009-11-22T21:42:00.005Z

A very unproductive weekend, it surely was.

I stayed home all day, locked myself in and literally did nothing.

The day was rather gloomy. The fact that my room window faces a wall doesn't really help in bringing in much sunlight in the summer, what not in winter when sunlight is scarce.

The weather forecast on my dashboard states 10 degrees celcius. However it sure does feel colder here in my room. Silence hangs in my room. I hear nothing but the wind, howling outside my window.

Songs playing on my itunes bring no joy either.

Bottomline, a depressing cold weekend.

Tell me something new.

however,

one person did cheer me up nearing the end day.

she said

"duck confit"

2 words; made my day. =)

truly God sent.

(courtesy of http://da-shing.blogspot.com)

What is it?

2009-11-08T16:56:00.005Z

What is it that settles a heart of loneliness?

What is it that eases an aimless soul?

Could it be the weather that makes the day gloomy,

could it be the awful silence that rings in my ear; rings in my heart.

A state that mercilessly eats you slowly;

torn and pleading for freedom.

What is there to dwell on to cast this curse away?

Gluttony? Wealth? Indulgence? Fame?

No earthy possessions can pawn this feeling away.

..Only the feeling of warmth and contentment can drive it away..

Here I am, diligently and patiently waiting

2009-11-07T22:01:00.005Z

I'm right here waiting for you.

Here waiting for you to fill me with the sense of contentment, eagerly to stare into your gaze.

I want to feel your warmth in my arms and hear your voice whispering into my ears.

I want our laughter to fill both our hearts and our tears to be shared in times of sorrow.

The whiff of your scent when you hover over, your silhouette when i glance at you from a far,

the sense of excitement upon hearing your name

..the smile on my face when you say...

"hello"

I'm right here waiting for you.

I don't understand

2009-11-04T23:28:00.003Z

I just don't understand how some people can be so selfish and disdain with the feelings of others. One can argue that "this" is the most practical and logical manner of approaching the situation. However, there are times compassion and loyalty come into play. They are called good friends for a reason. I would definitely take the extra mile for a friend that i deem worthy of my efforts. A friend that has been loyal to me, been there for me through thick and through thin, shared my joys and sorrows, my ups and downs, offering endless support and advice when i needed them, appreciating what ever i merely did for them.

Unless you deem them unworthy and nonsensical even after all they had done for you;

Actions of kindness they expect nothing in return.

Then, what type of friend are you?

Who needs strangers when they have friends like you?

Small simple actions paints a million words. There is a reason why the phrase "attention to detail" is often used.

It is these small little actions of kindness that makes you one true friend.

Food, Food, Foooood

2009-07-23T15:16:00.004+01:00

At long last,

I got my visa done.

After hours and hours of preparation

(many thanks to Blynken and SweeLeen for attending to my

never-ending questions and queries)

my visa was finally granted and it is valid till November 2012.

No one can imagine and understand the anxiety and stress I've been through throughout those 5days after my submission, only wynken would understand..right wynken???

*fingerscrossed*

I hope we'll sail through graduate school to doctorhood smoothly.

With the little time i have back in KL I decided to pay Samantha-dirty a visit or rather meet up for a casual dinner.

Hence, Samantha, Seeki and I

(Vanessa insisted on not coming along cause she's apparently broke =S )

dined at Shook!, StarHill

(yet again; we love Shook too much!:D )

The night was splendid!

Seeki ordered "my" Goose Noodles, which was exquisite.

Since she ordered my "safety-net" i decided to go for my other plan B;

Seafood Spaghetti in Marinara sauce aka. Spaghetti Seafood ala Frutti de Mare.

How wrong can this get right?well think again. It was definitely disappointing;

the pasta was rather overcooked and it was not well drenched with the sauce.

An Absolute let down.

Samantha-dirty's Fettucine ala Carbonara on the other hand was delicious;

creamy, tender pasta and scrumptious fresh mushrooms.

For desert we shared a serving of Creme Brulee.

The Creme Brulee was alright.

It was not mouth watering but it was not disgusting. Normal i guess?

Nothing can beat the Creme Brulee i had at my ZM's (ZhiMui@Elizabeth) place during that fateful Christmas Reception.

( i think i was the only one amongst our friends who tasted that dish..

heehee..talk about favoritism =P )

OMG..i can still taste the soft layer of creme and liquor,

intertwined with succulent sultanas covered with a layer crispy caramelized sugar.

HEAVENLY!!

Sadly, i never got to taste it ever again.

That dish was a Christmas gift from one of ZM's mother, Aunt Nancy's friends.

DAMN..

could someone recommend me to a place where can i taste such excellent creme brulee??

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LUNCH!

I woke up rather late today around 12 pm.

Mom practically kicked me out of my room at 9am cause she wanted to workout aka. use the treadmill, as you guys might know the treadmill is in my room.

You might think this would wake me up?

hahah think again..

i hopped over to my sister's room and collapsed on her bed

(lets just hope she is not reading this..heehee...).

Well, technically i'm only helping her put her room into good use while she's not round!HAHA

So, yes, back to "LUNCH!",

my stomach was practically screaming for hunger when i woke up.

Thus i got myself cleaned up, stampede-d downstairs

and rummaged through my mother's kitchen.

I decided to eat in today, since it would be faster and more convenient for my tummy :)

Not much rummaging was needed; this was staring at me when i entered the kitchen

OKIE this will do, but THIS alone was certainly not enough; too plain.

Hence i whipped up 2 eggs, defrosted 2 turkey sausages

and SCREAMED for mom to make me a salad.

(i'm exaggerating, i begged mom to make me a salad..heehee)

before garnishing

after garnishing

see the carrot cashew-nuts with yogurt dressing salad next to my noodles?

Part 2

2009-07-20T15:36:00.006+01:00

My sister found this lovely 2 bedroom apartment for me somewhere near her place in Edinburgh.

The place has one and a half stories with one the bedrooms occupying the whole upper floor.

EXQUISITE, LOVELY!

i fell in love with the place at first sight of the pictures.

So, V, my sister boyfriend was kind enough to help me talk to the landlord

and he, the landlord seem rather interested too,

however he had some reservations towards renting the place to 2 guys.

He intended to rent the place to a couple and not 2 guys or 2 girls.

(dont ask me why!weird)

After much discussion and persuasion he agreed to rent it to us, and we agreed that my sister would place the deposit, put it in her name first and transfer it to me later when i arrive.

i was such a happy bunny!

Knowing the place has 2 double bedrooms, i set of the buy all the necessities;

i even bought a few sets of queen size bedsheets and shipped it over.

little did i know,

my whole came crumbling down when i read an email my sister just sent me.

the ~SCREWED UP !@#$%^&*()_+ landlord

pulled back his words and

PULLED THE PLUG ON US!

HE FREAKING RENTED THE PLACE TO ANOTHER TENANT!!!!!

ARRRGHHHHHH

now i'm back to square one..

apartment hunting AGAIN!

the best thing was that apartment had 2 bathrooms. arrrghh...

haih

now i'm just pissed...

this sucks

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on a lighter note,

was plugged into my ipod today while being a hamster on the treadmill and

Jay Chou's Wo Bu Pei was playing and instantly it reminded me of Blynken :)

It was Blynken that introduced this song to me and now i'm hooked to it.

i even memorized the lyrics, even though i don't read mandarin!

Everytime i listen to it, it will bring me back to pre EOS 5 days,

days when we were preparing for our EOS 5 and times i've spent with Blyken and Wynken=). Phone conversations with Blynken and what this song reminds her of..HAHA.

well i hope now this song would remind her of ME rather than some unpleasant memory!

~thou shall wipe out those memories~

Talking bout songs, i've written a post about this when i first started blogging.

Songs and what they signify.

Here's part 2..

Fish Leong and Gary Cao's PK would always bring me back to karaoke days with Wynken, Blynken and Brother Teoh.

Wynken, with her amazing voice would always duet with Brother Teoh and this would be their song.

Disturbia by Rihanna on the other hand would super-jet me back to times when i first started gym-ing, and that would be..errm...back in august 2008?

This song was such a super hot piece then and it would be blasting on the stereos in the gym.

I would be running on the treadmill and it always played.

Beyonce's Single Ladies..HAHA...this is song my buddy; keng and i would be all fascinated over when we hear it.

i call it our song haha..especially the line;

don't give him any attention,

our hands would mimic Beyonce's dance routine! haha...

such embarrassing acts.

Everytime i listen to Leo Ku's Yan Jing Bu Neng Mei Yan Lei, this would bring me back to the time i had this huge crush on someone that i haven even met and Blynken would be there to listen to my stupid ranting and yearnings.

Well i got over the feeling really fast.

Come to think of it i think it was an avenue of stress relief especially when this happened it was during pre-EOS 5 days (yet again).

After EOS 5, i dropped these feelings like it was plague..i just lost interest.

Blynken says i'm too easy and builds castles in air!

sadly she is kinda right..damn

Climb by Miley Cyrus would blast me back to the time we journeyed up to Genting in Seeki's car.

Everyone was saying how great this song is and

Ada and I just looked at each other and said;

what are they talking about?LOL

later on,

i got hooked to this song and kept it on repeat mode all the time.

It irritated my mom so much she would come up to me and say;

"I can't STAND this song!!"

she thinks Miley Cyrus is irritating and so is her voice!

hahah i have to agree to it though=)

but i still love this song

oh well i have off to bed now.

i just received a notification that my visa is ready for collection.

Going down tomorrow to pick it up.

*fingerscrossed*

i hope they did not reject me!..sobs

Look What Dad Brought Home..

2009-07-19T14:51:00.006+01:00

"JK" my loyal exercising companion for 7 years decided i've overworked him and gave up on me.

FYI, JK is a treadmill dad brought home 7 years ago when i decided being obese is not my thing.

SOOOOO,

we had to bid farewell to JK and say hello to

REEBOO!

lemme tell you more bout Reeboo

According to the brochure,

the Reebok 8 Series RBK-T885 (i call it REEBOO) is a State of the Art treadmill.

It comes with MP3 compatible speakers and it is able to withstand a maximum weight capacity of 148kg.

Lets just hope i dont get THAT OBESE..i would just jump of a cliff!

It has a wide running space of 20"x 55",

good for a someone that runs wide like ME..

heehee *wink*wink*

Reeboo comes with a fan cooler too!

it blows air from the control panel and keeps you chilled while you run.

the only down side of it is the speed range. It is measured in Miles and not Kilometers!

why cant the Reebok, the manufacturers, use the metric system!

ARRRgh...

I'm so used to seeing everything in Kilometers.

Havta do the conversion mentally while running.

@#$%^&*(

Take a look at how cool Reeboo's display is;

(see my ipod?)

compared to JK's;

JK really looks ancient

you can change Reeboo's display according to your liking;

this display shows your whole workout summary;

from the time to the distance to speed, inclination, number of calories burnt and your pulse rate.

this one on the other hand is rather COOL..

it depicts a figure walking according to your speed. As you increase your speed, the figure will start to walk faster and run..

and it also flashes the time, speed and calories burnt once every 10 seconds.

this display on the other hand depicts your workout history..

haha you can see mine here..heehee

I burnt 309.8 calories today in 25 minutes!heehee

1 mile = 1.6 km

2.172 miles = 2,172 x 1.6

= 3.48 km

DAMn i only ran 3.48 km in 25 mins! looks like i need to run faster!

TIMMMEEEE.......

this is an interesting one;

shows the beat of my music.

i plugged in my ipod!

you can actually see my "plugged-in" ipod in one of the pictures above

Reeboo is also famous for its space saver feature;

IT FOLDS!

before

after

BYE BYE JK!!!

How to Make a Cuppa Perfect Smoothie

2009-07-18T16:14:00.011+01:00

Smoothie at its best

Step 1:

Get a

Freakingsmartassfriendthatknowseverythingfrombooks

toingredientstoputinasmoothie

aka.

Get a SEEKI!

Step 2 :

Get a hungryfriendthatlovesfoodandeatsanythingand

wouldgiveconstructivecriticismonyourfood aka. Tester aka. Guiney Pig aka.

Get a Vanessa-Nicholas team.

(buy one and get the other free; they would just eat till you go broke!LOL)

Step 3 :

Get a blender

Step 4 :

Throw everything into the blender; fruits, sorbet, milk, chocolate, oil, cream..

(to quote from seeki, you can put anything you want into your smoothie)

but the conventional way is to put fresh fruits, sorbet and natadecoco!

YUM~

Step 5 :

Start Blending!

Step 6 :

Pour it into a glass and feed it to your guinea pigs.

Step 7 :

Wait and observe your guinea pigs.

If they go into an anaphylactic shock, multiple seizures and die,

begin at Step 1 again,

but this time, try altering ingredients in Step 4.

if guinea pig is fine and still feels like a happy bunny,

pour a glass for yourself

Final Step :

Add in as much LOVEEEEEEE as you can

VOILA

Smoothie!!

Can you believe this is Malaysia?

2009-07-18T15:39:00.005+01:00

Contrary to many perspectives of "ang-mohs" (westerns), we Malaysians do not live on trees and hunt our own food.

We are very capable of buying them, thank you.

After dinner last Sunday, ZM (zhimui@elizabeth) and I felt rather bored and decided to take a quick drive to PutraJaya, just for the sake of it.

I have to admit, upon reaching the Malaysian Capital of Administration, we were in awe and our jaws were dropping.

The architecture, the lightings..down to the traffic lights were state of an art!

it just looks so much better at night.

take a look..

love this shot.

ZM thinks it looks like a beemer ad.

The Malaysian Prime Minister's Department building

...i love my car..

Painting The Town Red..

2009-05-29T12:39:00.005+01:00

After a long exhausting day of traveling to and back from

PutraJaya to get our Letters of Good Conduct done,

Shing, Peihua, Yuan Liang and I decided to feast at the renown Italian and French restaurant Cafe Cafe,

located downtown along Jalan Lock Yew.

The food was exquisite.

~Appetizer~

Oven-baked Escargots topped with Foie Gras

Sundried Tomato Cheese Salad

Pan-seared Foie Gras

~Main Course~

Duck Confit

Seafood Marinara Spaghetti

Truffle Cream Fettuccine

Lamb Shank

~Dessert~

Tiramisu

Cheese Cake

absolutely scrumptious!

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The next day, i had a date with my zhimui Elizabeth.

I owed her a belated birthday celebration, hence i brought her out to have cantonese cuisine at Lai Poh Heen restaurant, Mandarin Oriental Hotel.

(yes i'm very aware her birthday was in the month of April. April 24th to be exact!

i was a month and 4 days late..heehee)

Peking Duck

Cantonese style Beef Tenderloin

Kong Pow Duck

Claypot Aubergine prepared with minced meat

Sweetened Hot Soy Milk boiled with White Fungus and Gingko

Glutinous Ball Dumpling served with Ginger tea

Green tea cake served with Sesame Ice-cream

We were stuffed at the end of the meal!

Dinner was fulfilling and positively divine.

Most importantly, Elizabeth, the belated birthday girl enjoyed herself :)

Post Exam Stress Relief

2009-05-24T15:24:00.003+01:00

At long last, EOS 5 is OVER!

*fingerscrossed*

(hope i'll sail through)

anywho,

after being locked up at home for such a long time,

i decided to drag mom out shopping!

(mainly shopping for me!hahah)

take a look at how much damage i've done;

1. Trench Coat by Club Monaco

2. Yellow Jacket by Club Monaco

3. Black 100% wool pullover by DKNY

4. Blue Tee Shirt by Nike

5. Green Button-down shirt by GAP

6. Grey Slacks by GAP

7. Blue Suede Calf Leather Loafers by Salvotare Ferragamo

heehee =D

Baby Berry

2009-05-20T14:55:00.011+01:00

The day was 18th May 2009. The time; 12.00am.

My sister called to ask whether i would like a new phone.

Obviously, me being me; Nicholas Whey Leon Yeap IMMEDIATELY jumped for the offer!

"OMG NEW PHONE! Are you kidding me?!OF course i want a new phone!HAVE you seen my CURRENT PHONE? It is in such a dilapidated state i dont even wanna talk about it"

(this is said with much exaggeration and pun intended =) )

i'm currently using the Nokia E65 and Nokia N82.

I use the E65 more, cause the N82 is giving me some @#$%^&* problems.

Back to what i was saying;

My sister was explaining she wanted out on her current plan and O2,

trying to get her to stay,

offered her an amazing deal that no cellphone user can ever say no to.

£30 a month, 1000 free minutes, 1200 free text messages and unlimited internet access!PLUS PLUS..a phone of YOUR choice!

currently, she is paying £35 a month, 600 free minutes, 500 free text messages and with unlimited internet access.

My sister being my sister, the money wise one; blatantly suggested to the operator that she was thinking of a Nokia E71

( i mentioned this Nokia to her earlier cause i liked it and it looks like a blackberry!).

The operator agreed and told my sister she has 1 week to think about the deal,

otherwise the deal is OFF!

So yes, she called me and asked me whether i wanted a Nokia E71. I was pretty torn because i was seriously considering a Blackberry; when i'm over there.

but since the deal was such a DIE-FOR-DEAL, i said i'm on board.

My sister being my beloved sister, noticed the change of tone in my voice told me she will try to get them to change the Nokia E71 to a Blackberry Bold.

(SOOO SWEEET!!!!)

With on hand on the phone trying to get through to the O2 operator and the other on the keyboard corresponding with me via MSN messenger

she asked the O2 representative whether the deal is on if she wanted the Blackberry instead..and...

VOILA

they said YES!

the were offering a Blackberry Curve 8900 but i insisted on getting a Bold

(recommendations from my beloved SHING!!)

Meanwhile i was having doubts. Maybe i should stick to a Nokia. Since i have been a nokia user fer the past 10 years that would be a wiser choice.

On the other hand i thought i needed to venture out of the box and try something new..

hmmm...here i was in a dilemma

and there was my sister, pushing for an immediate decision because the O2 representative was holding on the other line!

OMG...I DON'T FUNCTION WELL UNDER PRESSURE!!!!!!!!

in the heat of the moment i typed..." BLACKBERRY!"

she asked my multiple times..."SURE?"

and i said "YES!"

when she placed the order, the Nokia E71 got the better of me!

i quickly changed my mind back to Nokia but it was too late. The transaction has been processed.

Trust me i dont wanna be facing my sister at that moment!

she was practically yelling at me over MSN for my indecisiveness and fickle-minded -ness.

I could tell she was beyond pissed!

But anywho,

my fickle-ed mind fickle-ed back to the Blackberry in a matter of seconds!

i realized the Blackberry has been a dream for so long.

Thank GOD the transaction went through. If not i will be stuck with a

rather-cool-rather-uncool E71!

Nokia E71 or Blackberry Bold?

The phone was scheduled to arrive on the 2oth May 2009 (TODAYYYY!!!!) and i shall leave you with pictures of it..courtesy of my beloved and lovable sister Elaine..heehee

This is what is waiting for me in Edinburgh!

i freaaaaaaaaaaking need to pass my EOS 5 if i want to catch a glimpse of my Baby Berry!!

21st May 2009: LAST DAY OF EOS 5!!!i need to SCORE IN MY OSCE!

Blackberry Buddies

2009-05-19T15:48:00.009+01:00

*this is self explanatory*

as how Meredith Grey said it;

"I LOVE YOU, CHRISTINA YANG"

just substitute the 'Christina Yang' part with BlynKen

~I LOVE YOU, BLYNKEN~

Cold in Style

2009-05-06T08:03:00.008+01:00

I'm in desperate need for a new wardrobe if everything goes as planned

*fingerscrossed*

hence i did some research after lunch today..

i personally love trench coats and long over coats.

Some might feel that if you arent that tall, you cant pull of one of these long over coats.

I beg to differ!

..its all bout the length, the fit, the size and the cut...

it has to fit you like a glove!

Only purchase one when you feel it is right and never settle for second best.

You are paying a fortune for it!

so NEVER compromise..

you are only compromising what you truly deserve;

looking good :)

Overcoats from Hermes & Burberry Prorsum Fall 2009 collection

Sweater and Suit Jacket from Hermes Fall 2009

the few looks pictured above are SOO me...well at least that is what i think!

i personally like it simple, structured and classy..

some of my friends

(blynken @ shing for example)

feel what i like is too common, boring and i should venture out of the box!

Dolce and Gabbana Fall 2009

Hence, i did more research,

think out of the box and try something new!

I'm pretty intrigued by D&G's collection.

it oozes exuberance, personality and style!

it has a tinge theatrical essence;

reminds me of 19th century french cabaret; the detailing and choices of fabric and texture.

Totally shouts Moulin Rouge to me!

i'm loving it..

D&G Fall 2009

love the detailing on the jackets. fusion between military jackets and chic early 21st century.

so Bourgeois =)

Costume National Fall 2009

love the leather jacket and the downs feather jacket!

alright, my books are calling...

till then...

self worth and esteem..

2009-05-05T14:50:00.004+01:00

arrrgh, been feeling rather "crabby" the whole day

~~CCRRAACCCK~~

*sound of crab shells cracking*

*think Beth in "He is just not that into you". OMG so apt*

i just don't feel like doing anything..

haven't been doing much studying and my EOS 5 is in less than 2 weeks..just feel like DYINNNNGG LAAA!

I'm just not focused, constantly zoning off..thinking bout stuff that i shouldn't be thinking of..

all i can think of is checking my mail..

practically EVERY HOUR!

WHAT THE HELL is wrong with me!

It's as if i'm seeking for approval!

well maybe not approval per se..but more of society's acceptance..

a sense of belonging, a sense of pride, a sense of self worth...and sense of...confidence..

such a F***ing piece of emo wreck..

feeling crappy, feeling crabby, feeling crappy, feeling crabby

needed an avenue to channel my frustration, my "emo-ness", my depression..and God knows what other emotions linked to lack of self worth and esteem..

hence,

my blog, my chamber of secrets..

*sound of key locking the chest and iron doors to the dungeon/chamber*

*sound of the ocean waves*

*sound of keys dropping into the ocean*

*sound of water splash*

....

Conjoined Twins (P.H. Lee & W.L. Yeap)

2009-04-17T18:45:00.008+01:00

This post is specially dedicated to LEE PEI HUA!

Future Dr. P.H. Lee, has always complained that i dont put her pictures up and that i dont treat her as my "friend!"

well i dont! cause we are TWINS!LOL...

pei hua, this is for you =)

pei hua, my conjoined twin!

SEE!! only one set of hands!

hahah pei hua is gonna KILL me when she reads this

*peihuastyle*

pei hua, nicholas, Princess A @ Shing and michelle (opps!michelle is cut out!)

okie this is a better picture with all the faces visible!heehee

lovely..

wheyleon.. =)

memories

2009-04-15T18:33:00.012+01:00

i think i'm sick! like literally SICK! i'm infected with this "i-dont-wanna-study" bug..
so anyway..i was flipping through my photo library and guess what i found!
hahah here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure!
~~and yes some ppl commented that some of my posts are just woorrddieee so here are PICTURES, LOADS OF IT!~~

post steamboat picture!!haha
(amanda, kumyeen, elizabeth and nicholas)

this picture is just CLASSIC!

do you like my cravat??

do you like my pocket square?LOL
lastly do you like the "princess" standing next to me??LOL

dont we all look stunning??hahah..ball worthy outfits!

OMG i look freaking oily and GROSS!! and vanessa's hand is on my forehead!

i love this picture??dont you dear???

HAHAH i love this picture TOO!! dont you shaz darling?

erm....lol...speechless

this shot was taken when chialee flipped her card fer less than a second and i caught it on CAMERA!HAHAH love it!

the mafia at work!

i love this picture! guess who was the photographer??
*cough*cough*

HARNESHHHH!!

SHALINI
( the person that ignores me!)

Ipoh trip 2007

Ipoh trip 2007
elongated marcus!

HAHAH zhiven with his heart-shaped pillow, LV bag and his "kiasu-i-cant-lose-chor-tai-dee" face!LOL

the sole reason why this picture is up is because of the presence of Princess A!
lol i cant believe i actually have a picture of her before 2009!

this picture is nice..i really tnk so!like REALLY REALLY
but i think itz self-explanatory!
*giggles*

CHUPPA CHUP!!!!!

*giggles*giggles*
erm............
*insidejoke*
(i hope someone gets it..LIKE ANYONE!if not i'll be damned for making a fool outta myself!)
*VANESSA TO THE RESCUE!~~i hope~~*
look at how innocent marcus looks!LOL

last but certainly not least

thank you for reading

..wheyLeon..

Nonsensical Ranting..

2009-04-15T15:04:00.003+01:00

As medical students we call ourselves future doctors, however after what has unfolded for the past few days, i seriously feel it is absolutely more appropriate to address ourselves as future SCRIPT-WRITERS, PRODUCERS, DIRECTORS or any profession that has to do with the entertainment industry! (this deserves a razzi award!)

2 syllables...DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA..DRA MA!

As a part of the medical cohort of M107 in IMU, i feel there is an innate need and urge to defend my batch everytime "gossips", "rumours" regarding my batch arises.
Just a few days ago, a friend of mine told me that the M107 batch is infamous for churning out "hot" and "fresh" "DRAMA" on a daily basis!like perezhilton!(well at least perez is entertaining and worth my time!)
I instantly refuted his comment and proclaimed -the just mentioned statement above- is absurd and foolish!

However i am proven wrong once again..

but what can i say? we love drama dont we? that is what keeps us from going insane after hours and hours of studying..

DE- stressing is the word!

I love it how people like to air their dirty laundry in public, digging out old stale news from bygone years, that are better locked away in a chest and thrown into the pacific ocean!

BUT NOOOO....people have to go ALL the way back into the ocean, hunt for that chest, unravel through ~~the junk~~ what ever's inside and publicize it like its some long lost Ming Dynasty relic!
but it actual fact that piece wont even make it to some FLEA market for auction!
talk bout Sotheby's..urgh...*gag*

I seriously wonder do human beings think before they speak?or write or type for that matter. Well as far as i understand, everything has to go to your frontal cortex before it gets transmitted down to your motor system, getting either your mouth to speak or hands to write and type! Hence it is scientifically proven that information does pass through the brain before action!
sadly, that doesn't apply to everyone. well maybe information IS transmitted to the brain but its done differently in every individual. And that is what i call; MOTIVE!
Like an establishment! in every different establishment, things are ran differently according to the policies and regulations of that respective establishment, regardless of it being unethical or not.
well i suppose the phrase of "action speaks louder than words" is rather true then!
some people just use words to speak for their actions!

i believe what ever we do, our actions and the way we do things, speaks loudly of what kind of character we are; be it nice, evil, timid, bitchy, horrendous, angelic, disastrous / catastrophic or just plain sweet!

Speaking as a person who wants to be regarded as a gentleman, i'll treat people the way i want to be treated. Hence in my mind, i'm screaming "gentleman-like", hopefully my actions would manifest into what i'm actually thinking.
but i suppose some people are just ungraceful, cheap, tacky and poor in social manners!

well i think its because of people like that turns things sour in a relationship and goes rotten AFTER the relationship is over. I get that things might not have turned out the way everyone wants it to be but i dont think there is a need for public humilition! well even if there is ( i'm speaking as a very bitchy person. i might do it next time. WHO KNOWS!?) a need for it, i think it should be done where the "victim light" is on you and the "evil light" is on the opposite party. If the motive is solely to put someone down, and result of your plan turns out otherwise (the "evil light" is somehow directed to you instead) then the execution plan is just plain stupid and unworthy of recognition.

well look whose the laughing stock now?
the writer? or the character of the story?

readers, you do your pick~

xoxo...gossipgirl..

(damn!i cant seem to find a mysterious name like gossipgirl's!DAMN DAMN)

Belated birthday wishes..like HELL DAMN LATE!

2009-04-14T20:17:00.003+01:00

so yes..i'm such a jackass..
i fergot TY's birthday which was on the 24th March 2009..

i feel so bad because TY remembered mine
and even called me all the way from Kangaroo land just to convey his birthday wishes!
~~well he had seeki to remind him!seeki didnt bother reminding me!SEEKI is to blame!~~

i'm soooo SOOOO sorreee TY..
hence..better late than never..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TZE YANG CHIN!

~cheesepie~

M107

2009-04-13T19:06:00.003+01:00

IMU Medical Batch
M107 cohort
(2007)

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IMU Medical Batch
M107 cohort
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..wheyLeon =)..

IMU SRC 08/09

2009-04-04T05:30:00.007+01:00

International Medical University
Student Representative Council
2008/2009

Its has been one year since we ran for council and now the end of our term has approached. It was indeed an honour being in council and serving the IMU population.

The time spent in council has given me invaluable experience. Working with this team was such a pleasure. All the fun-filled and enjoyable times. Although there were stressful times; meeting deadlines, never ending meetings, juggling between studying and SRC duties..but all these we worth it! This has help cultivated values and capabilities that i thought i never had; time management, surviving stress..etc, etc.

However, it is the time to bid farewell. Thank You everyone for their support and the patience they had for us. ~~For those who hate/despise/dislike/has deep repugnance for us, dont worry we are outta your hair from now onwards =)~~

i'll leave you readers with pictures taken during our tenure;

Men of
IMU SRC 08/09

Ladies of IMU SRC 08/09

(L to R) Sivaraj; IMU SRC Vice President Pharmacy, Keng Seng Tham; IMU SRC Honorary Secretary, Leslie Sillitoe; IMU SRC President, Mezhen Ko; IMU SRC Vice President Medicine, Xin Ying Tai; Vice President Health Sciences

(L to R)Chun Kang Soon; IMU SRC Sporst Representative, Wei Luen Leong; IMU SRC Social Concerns Representative, Chin Yeong Low; IMU SRC Honorary Treasurer, Nicholas Whey Leon Yeap; IMU SRC Public Relations Liaison, Sin Wee Chua; IMU SRC Cultural and Religious Representative, Geowin Soloman; IMU SRC IT Liaison.

last but certainly not least i leave you with my favourite picture of all...

IMU SRC 08/09

ps: at least now we get to concentrate on our studies..heehee...

MATCHING RESULTS!

2009-03-31T17:43:00.003+01:00

EDINBURGH HERE I COME!!!
YYYAYYY!!

PRAISE THE LORD!
THANK YOU MOTHER MARY FOR INTERCEDING MY PRAYERS!

VENTED frustration

2009-03-27T08:54:00.007Z

i just feel like pulling someone's hair out, coat it with butter and shove it down someone's throat or up someone's A**!!!!!!

i'm just really really pissed la...
well yet again, the release of my university matching results has been postponed!
i have this strong innate feeling they just wanna mess around with our nerves and keep us in the dark!
i tnk i;m really going crazzzy on the matching thing..

haven been studying properly cause i keep tnking of it..
haven been sleeping much either cause i keep tnking of it....
haven been concentrating much in lectures too cause i keep tnking of it...
haven been concentrating much in ANYTHING cause i'm freaking tnking of it!

the only thing that i have been able to concentrate on is..EATING!..seriously if they dont release the results any sooner i'll be looking like what i did 8 years ago...A FAT KID!
( i tend to binge at odd hours of the day when i'm stressed!)

yup..that's what i look like 6 years ago..precisely 80kg..

this is what i do best when i;m stressed!

well some of my friends just wanna kill themselves! some on the other hand would prefer to channel their anger and frustration into KILLING those involved, rather than killing themselves!

one of them wanted to burn the whole department down, and another wanted to slaughter them one by one to savor the sweetness of vented frustration!

me on the other hand wanted to pull my hair out, coat it with butter and eat them!
( yes butter, i'm very aware of the calories, hence like i said i grow fat when i'm stressed!)
when yeen darling ( yes, yeen again) texted me saying that the results will only be out on Monday, 5pm..
i just wanted to DIE! it was like i was drained off my blood, energy and strength, slowly and torturously!!
however like what Alyssa dear said i shouldnt die cause my seat in my "ideal" university (like i would get it!!) would be given to someone else! and i should survive to claim what is mine!
hahah..such a nicely phrased statement...thought it was total bullshit that i'm given my ideal university *fingerscrossed*..

oh well....life is such...complicated and unpredicatable!

life sucks!

Of stress and workload...and matching..

2009-03-26T13:59:00.004Z

SOOO..matching results will be out tomorrow..
i received a text from Sook Yeen this morning that went like this:

"PMS results out at 10.30 but we only can collect it at 5..WTH??"

(yes i skipped lectures today cause, collectively, i've only slept fer a total of 7 hours for 2 consecutive nights..trying to study and prepare fer my PBL!
and turned into a walking talking zombee today!)

i think that was the best alarm clock EVER!
i could literally feel my heart beating against my pillow,
the sudden activation of my sympathetic nervous system; sweating, increase BP, dilation of my pupils and tachycardia!

so...anywho...

i replied Yeen stating we should collect our results together later...
and this was her reply:

"you mean we'll go together TOMORROW??"

i was somewhat puzzled. i thought she said we could collect it at 5???
little did i know she got the timing mixed up..no..correction..there was a TYPO!
she forgot to include the "tomorrow" part!
thanks Yeen fer waking me up this morning at 8.30am
..though i went to bed at 5.ooam the night before..
so sweet of you to wake me up with such
APPROPRIATE and ACCURATE
news!

ohhh well that's all gravy...i think

i'm just feeling rather jittery, bugged and bothered at the moment..
various random thoughts are flying through my head now..
..all the what ifs..

what if i dont get the university i want?
what if i try to appeal if i dont get what i want?
what if the appeal would not go through?
what if i end up in a place that i would be far away from my sister?
what if i would end up all the way down south in UK?
what if i would end up all the way up north in UK?
what if i would end up all the way down in the SOUTHERN HEMISPHERE?
(good Lordd...NOOO)
what if i would end up in any of my other choices!?

other thing that is bugging me is, what if i would go to a university with people i cant get a long with..
ideally is to get to the university i want, with friends like vanessa, alyssa, peihua and marcus to accompamy me there..
(not really ideally..if itz really ideal then that would include others like samantha, karmen, keng, sook yeen, kim...seeki..now that's slightly far fetched innit!?LOL)

next thing you know they would ALL go to the university I want and i'm left to go to another God forsaken place that might only have one seat..
i'll be all

ALONNNNNEE!!!!

(cant rmb where this place is!?LOL..it might not be so bad but still it is not ideal!)

there is nothing that can be done..all i can do is wait, wait fer 5pm tomorrow..
i have a heavy schedule tomorrow..

the day starts of with
lectures, followed by csu practice...
hustings which would at least take up 3 hours..
then another hour and a half to get the src office shifting...
leaving me with approximately half an hour before the verdict;
the sealing of my future medical career...
well i hope this busy schedule would at least take my mind of matching...

seriously i doubt it..

all i can do know is pray...but this is really last minute...

what if God attends to prayers according to a 1st come 1st served basis..
just imagine the number of devotees He has and the accumulation of prayers everyday!
if i would submit my prayer now..He might read it tomorrow after the results are released..
i need to find a way to jump the queue of prayers...LOL
well i shant do that cause that would just make my prayers invalid..HAHA...i tnk i'll just do it the old conventional way and hope fer the best...

Oh Mighty Father, please guide us through this crucial part of our lives. I pray that the matching results would be satisfactory to everyone and that everyone would find peace in the final results. You have everything installed for us and all of us have a specific destiny. Lastly, i pray that God would help me in accepting my matching results, regardless of the choice or outcome..I also pray He would guide me to the correct path that would lead to my next course of action, if there is to be one..
I ask this through Christ our Lord Amen

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~meardymevolymerisedymhgrubnide~

Belated Thanks...

2009-03-18T14:23:00.013Z

This post is made solely for the purpose to thank some charming and tasteful characters that romp my life

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

SOOOOO anyway...

stated below are some presents i received for my ~~long gone~~ 21st birthday..

1. From: SAMANTHA TEE AND KARMEN LIM

these 2 darlings took so much time and effort to come out with this beautifully crafted photo album.

Pictures in this album were meticulously organized and arranged
chronologically from my days in sem1 all the way up to my birthday this year.
They are also intertwined with meaningful and sarcastic notes here and there
..so SWEEEEET of them..
(not the sarcastic part tho :S)

All the time and effort placed into making this can be somewhat translated into
haute couture!

such intricate work..practically french seams..

I HEART KARMEN AND SAMANTHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!heehee

2. From : KENG & JAMES

Keng and James on the other hand got me a set of Peter Alexander pajamas that hailed all the way from Australia!

i just love how the shirt screams

"the devil made me do it!"

HAHAHA...
they did have a specific message to convey through this statement!
i seriously wonder what is it that the devil made me do??..hmmm :P ...LOL

the lovely box the pajamas came in

don't you just love how the design on the box represents the design of the shirt!haha so apt a description..LOL..i shall tell my mom that!HAHA

SUCH GEMS/JAMS....
~~or marmalade or what ever conserves~~
heehee

3. SOOK YEEN, CHLOE & SIEW KIM

sorry chloe, i dont have a picture of you...we NEED MORE PICTURESS!!!!!!!!

Last but certainly not least, these 3 angels.
i was window shopping with chloe and sook yeen just a few days back
and we made a stop at

"dude & the duchess"

at Bangsar Shopping Village.
Us being us, we started fooling around
and i decided to try on this shirt that i caught my eye.

(i actually fell in love with this shirt the very 1st moment i laid sight on it
which was way back in January, but they didnt have my size then).

IT was PERFECT!

but i decided against it since i've spent so much in the past month(s)..hehehe..
so that was it, the end of my shirt!

i went home with a heavy heart and i couldnt sleep that night..
i REALLY wanted it!
i even called Sook Yeen dear at 2 am in the morning to share my misery,
but to my dismay,
she was asleep! ='(

HOWEVER,
the next day Sook Yeen conned me into believing that she wanted a favour from me to pass a certain someone a certain something..and surprised me with

THIS

and added

"please pass this to yourself!"

OMG...i WANTED TO SHOUT, SCREAM...or just make loud noises!!

the packaging is just so POSH!

love how it looks like a folder/file and they slip the shirt in..

i love the multi-coloured bottons! it adds the tinge of excitement to a somewhat boring black shirt..
I LOVE IT!

i felt so bad for my behaviour!i was actually ranting to her how much i wanted that shirt
the morning itself!

(please bear in mind i had no intention of insinuating that i wanted her to buy!!!!HELL NO!!)

and she surprised me with it in that afternoon!!!!

this masterpiece was a present from Yeen, Kim and Chloe..

OMG
..i wanted to cry for JOY and yet cry for HUMILIATION!

but anywho....

I LOVE YOU GUYS la!!!MUAX MUAX MAUX....THANK YOU SO MUCH LA..you guys are truly angels!heehee

Thank GOd i have friends with such magnificent, impeccable and exquisite taste!
heehee...

Divine Calling..

2009-03-16T12:55:00.008Z

After an absence of at least a month and a half from mass,
i decided i really needed to renew my faith or at least pay God a visit to apologize for my unspeakable heinous behaviour.
Honestly, i have no valid nor solid reasons for not attending mass for the past month or so.
It was really because of my sheer laziness,
giving myself/God stupid excuses like i need to study and shit like that.
He really does not deserve this kinda attitude.

Will He ever be lazy or give me stupid excuses when i needed help from Him?
Of course He WILL NOT!
(or at least that's what i want to believe;
i hope He has not given up on me :( ..)

So anyway, however bad or shameful i felt i needed to face the music.
At least own up to my own mistakes and repent! That's the least i could do. He deserves more than just, me praying every night and asking for forgiveness. that was definitely insufficient.

March 14th, 2009, Saturday. I decided to attend to sunset mass at Assumption Church, Jalan Templer, PJ.

I recruited my bestie, Ms. Elizabeth "Sonialicious" Monteiro to attend this session with me.

Elizabeth Claire "Sonialicious" Monteiro the darling..

It was raining heavily prior to us leaving my place.
The sense of laziness crept into me.
i was starting to fill my head with numerous silly excuses of why i should skip sunset mass and maybe attend the morning mass on Sunday
( eventhough i knew it deep inside me i would end up not going on Sunday).
Excuses like; it was raining so heavily, it would be difficult to find parking and shit like that!

However, with much determination to renew my faith,
i adamantly decided i Should not and CANNOT be so lazy!
I quickly set off for mass.

it was still drizzling when we arrived.
Thus, i reached back to the back of my car to grab my big ass umbrella.

I slid the outer cover of the umbrella out....and guess what fell out.....

THIS

the set of keys i lost AGESSS (more like a year) ago, with a special Assumption Church keychain that hung on it, which was given to me by my darling friend Joanne..

thank you Joanne for EVERYTHING...keychain included! MUAX!

what ARE THE ODDS MAN!

i was just..just...just dumbfolded, dumb shut and speechless!
i mean WHAT ARE THE ODDS!

me going to Assumption church for sunset set mass after weeks of absence..me feeling all crappy and guilty for not attending mass for weeks..

and THIS drops out,
..of all times..
..NOW..when i am about to attend mass at..no where else but

ASSUMPTION CHURCH!

To me, all these were like so preplaned by the Almighty!

i mean....come on!
it was raining..and i had to use the umbrella..and THIS FALLS OUT!

and the funny thing was...i've used that umbrella before AFTER i lost my set of keys and NOTHING fell out!

you might think that maybe the keys were hung on the umbrella and i didnt notice it..
but COME ON..how can i miss that!??????

i just felt so amazed and in awe, and STILL feeling it..

i really dont know what this means!

but i sure know one thing;

everyone, regardless of anyone..
regardless of your history, personality, character, preference, vanity, idiosyncrasies or mannerism...
you are always welcome in
God's House.

tick tock tick tock...

2009-03-12T15:11:00.007Z

Damn times flies!

EOS 5 is in exactly 66 days, 9 systems to finish studying, PMS matching results in 9days
( i might end up being matched to some dodgy God forsaken dumping ground of a university that might not even be in my top 10 choices of Partner Medical Schools!
DAMN!!)
and never ending meetings, meetings, meeetings,

~stress, stress, stress~

(i am still here posting a new post!WTF am i not studying???????!)

In a blink of an eye, i'm in my 3rd year of med school, 5th semester and about to face one of de most uphill obstacle/traffic light in my undergraduate life;

PMS Matching...PHASE II of med school.

The worst thing now is, i'm at the crossroads now.
the traffic light is red and it is not up to me to decide when the traffic light turns green. furthermore, i might be behind the wheel, but i'm not driving it!
this state-of-an-art machine drives itself !
(or someone controlling it from the control tower)
it will go which ever direction its commanded, not by ME,
but by some big shot sitting in the control tower!
hence i do not know whether the "person above" wants me to take a left or right turn, reverse, go straight on or just CRASH!

my future is in His hands.

one can look at it in 2 ways; the person sitting above, deciding my future, is none other that the Almighty Himself
or/&
the ppl sitting in the academic department.
(obviously everything boils down to the former. He calls the shots!)

I can honestly declare that i have not been a good boy for the past, God knows how many months!
i dont know, i feel like i've distant myself from Him and there is no one else to blame but myself. the worst thing is i'm not doing anything to retify this and still seeking fer

His Divine Intervention!

what a crap piece of shit am i huh?

conclusion: i'm screweddddd

come what may and the rest is history

May the Lord have mercy on me and help me through this difficult path.
i shall accept His verdict and decision.
i know He has something installed for everyone of us and everything happens for a specific reason...
God Help all of us.
Amen.

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~~!!hgrubnidetnawiyldabwohenigamitonnacuoy~~

The English Language...played, toiled and manipulated to its beauty!

2009-03-08T15:42:00.005Z

Pride and Prejudice is one movie i can watch over and over and over again ( i actually do!).
It never gets old! well it is called a classic for a reason.

Its characters are so aptly and beautifully defined.
It gives us a glimpse into 19th century England.

The language is so profound and refined.

I personally prefer this 2005 Keira Knightley-Matthew Macfadyen version to the
BBC 1995 Colin Firth-Jennifer Ehle version.
The new aged version is concise, compact and complete.
Just sufficient for my movie palate.
Not too long and draggy, not too short.
Crisp and nice!

And the casting!
Excellent!

Keira Knightley was so well adapted into her role and aptly portrayed Elizabeth Bennett as described in the Jane Austen's masterpiece.
Her expressions and demeanour suited the role so perfectly.
Her exterior beauty was downplayed (minimal makeup and air brush),
however she was ooozing with personality attractiveness, mesmerizing the audience on a whole new different level!

Matthew Macfadyen too did a tremendous job! His cold and icy exterior in the beginning and later warming up to a more humane side of the Mr Darcy.
He practically presented the character on a 3D platter to the audience,
bedazzling them with his charm and suave-ness as described in the novel.

Below is an excerpt from the original movie script.
This is one of my Favourite part of the movie due the arrangement of words and expressions.

Darcy: Miss Elizabeth. I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you. I had to see you. I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectation, the inferiority of your birth by rank, so I can start all these things, and I'm willing to put them aside and ask you to end my agony.

Elizabeth: I don't understand.

Darcy: I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand.

Elizabeth: Sir, I appreciate the struggle you have been through, and I am very sorry to have caused you pain. Believe me, it was unconsciously done.

Darcy: Is this your reply?

Elizabeth: Yes, sir.

Darcy: Are you... are you laughing at me?

Elizabeth: No.

Darcy: Are you rejecting me?

Elizabeth: I'm sure the feelings which, as you've told me have hindered your regard will help you in overcoming it.

Darcy: Might I ask why, with so little endeavor at civility, I am thus repulsed?

Elizabeth: And I might as well enquire why, with so evident a design of insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me against your better judgment?

Darcy: No, believe me...

Elizabeth: If I was uncivil, then that is some excuse! But I have other reasons. You know I have.

Darcy: What reasons?

Elizabeth: Do you think anything might tempt me to accept the man who has ruined perhaps forever the happiness of a most beloved sister? Do you deny it Mr. Darcy, that you separated a young couple who loved each other, exposing your friend to the center of the world for caprice and my sister to its derision for disappointed hopes and involving them both in misery of the acutest kind?

Darcy: I do not deny it.

Elizabeth: How could you do it?

Darcy: Because I believed your sister's indifferent to him.

Elizabeth: Indifferent?

Darcy: I watched them most carefully and realized his attachment was deeper than hers.

Elizabeth: That's because she's shy!

Darcy: Bingley, too, is modest and was persuaded she didn't feel strongly for him.

Elizabeth: Because you suggested it.

Darcy: I did it for his own good.

Elizabeth: My sister hardly shows her true feelings to me. I suppose you suspect that his fortune had some bearing?

Darcy: No! I wouldn't do your sister the dishonor, though it was suggested...

Elizabeth: What was?

Darcy: It was made perfectly clear that an advantageous marriage...

Elizabeth: Did my sister give that impression?

Darcy: No! No. No. There was, however, I have to admit, the matter of your family...

Elizabeth: Our want of connection? Mr. Bingley didn't seem to vex himself about that.

Darcy: No, it was more than that.

Elizabeth: How, sir?

Darcy: It was the lack of propriety shown by your mother, your three younger sisters and even, on occasion, your father. Forgive me. You and your sister I must exclude from this.

Elizabeth: And what about Mr. Wickham?

Darcy: Mr. Wickham?

Elizabeth: What excuse can you give for your behavior towards him?

Darcy: You take an eager interest in that gentleman's concerns.

Elizabeth: He told me of his misfortunes.

Darcy: Oh, yes, his misfortunes have been very great indeed.

Elizabeth: You ruin his chances and yet you treat him with sarcasm.

Darcy: So this is your opinion of me? Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have been overlooked had not your pride been hurt by my honesty...

Elizabeth: My pride?

Darcy: ...in admitting scruples about our relationship. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?

Elizabeth: And those are the words of a gentleman. From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realize that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.

Darcy : Forgive me, madam, for taking up so much of your time.

~~~English is such a beautiful language~~~

Days before the 23rd..

2009-02-01T15:22:00.022Z

This post is specially written to thank all those who attended, planned a surprise birthday
party for me and those who celebrate my birthday with me...
so so so so sweet of you guys...
words cannot describe how thankful and grateful i am to have you guys as my "social alliance" hee hee...

TOTALLY LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

1ST PIT STOP : RUN FOREST RUN, STOP FOREST STOP

Date : 19th January 2009
Location : Bubba Gump, The Curve
Attendees : Elizabeth Sonia Claire Monteiro (ESCM), Amanda , Kum Yeen, Zhi Min, Eddy, Kimberly and Nicholas Yeap
ps: Thank you Elizabeth darling for planning such a beautiful surprise party fer me =)

2ND PIT STOP : GLAMOUR AND NOTHING BUT IT

Date: 22nd January 2009
Location : The C.Club by Carat Club, Pavillion
Attendees: Vanessa Tan, Keng Seng Tham, Samantha Tee, James Loh, Seeki Ong, Yuan Lih Hoo, Karmen Lim, Sook Yeen Lee, Siew Kim Yeo, Marcus Chow, Aveena Anatharajah and Nicholas Yeap
ps: Thank You Aveen and Yuan Lih for that AMAZING PRESENT!HAHAHA...I LOVE IT! MUAX!LOL

3rd PIT STOP : CALMING AND COSY

Date : 21st January 2009
Location : Victoria Station, PJ State
Attendees : Gary Foo and Nicholas Yeap
ps: Thank you Gary for being my turn to person for whining!hee hee

4th PIT STOP : ITS ALL BOUT SKYBAR

Date : 18th January 2009
Location : Traders Hotel and SkyBar
Attendees : Justin Liew and Nicholas Yeap
ps : SKY BAR ROCKS!!hee hee ~posh~

Every year, my birthday is celebrated on a small scale. i wont even call it a celebration..
just a normal get together with my family members and of course food is always served.
Besides the year of 2009, the only other official birthday celebration i had was the year 1999 and that turned out disastrous and it was definitely a catastrophe!
But there was of course the year 2007,
where my Form 6 buddies gave me a "surprise" at my place..
the only thing was before they could shout surprise i found a friend of mine
( no names mention * ahem*)
behind the couch with his head bobbing up!
AS a reflex i rushed into the kitchen and found another 2 of my friends lighting up my birthday cake..HEE HEE...well "surprise" kononnya!
HAHAH...
but it was all fun and gravy!
loved them loads..and still loving them to bits..hee hee

any who,

my point is...
God has been kind to me, blessing me with so many great friends..friends that care and friends that accept me for who i am..
so thank you guys fer making my 21st so memorable!

Joanne's Mandarin oriental cake in a black box, seeki's homebaked Chocolate cake and Marcus's 3/4 eaten tiramisu..yum..

My beloved, thoughtful and loving Seeki baked me a cake..eventhough she had a tight schedule of studying, pbl-ing, fund-raising for imu ball,..she still found time to bake me a double layer chocolate cake..SO SWEET OF her!!! and i'm the 1st person she baked for..so she claims =S
thank you SEEKI for the BEAUTIFUL CAKE!!!....loved it!and i'm craving for more!!!I WANT MORE, I WANT MORE!!!!!!!!I WANT THE RECIPE!!!

the box seeki's cake came in..soo prettty...

Double glazing chocolate cake..I LIKE!

Joanne on the other hand surprised me with a Chocolate mousse cake from Mandarin Oriental!
thank you JOANNE dear for the YUMMY CAKE! OMG..it must have costed a bomb!!!oMG..LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!

Then there was Marcus with the tiramisu..so SO SO SO RICH!!!all the MASCARPONE cHEESE...but it was DELICIOUS!SCRUMPTIOUS!
thank you WAYLUNN for my FAVOURITE CAKE..HEE HEE...BONTTON TIRAMISU!!!I LOVED IT...i'm LOVING IT.....i LOVE IT..(bet it cost a bomb too...sobs..thanks anyway!!!HEE HEE)

NYAPNYAPNYAPNYAPNYAPNYAPNYAP...YUM..NYAPNYAP

all together i had 3 cakes and i lugged it all the way back ipoh!!...well thanks to these ppl i'm FAT now..well according to marcus i am FATTAY innit!? guess i'm just stuck to this name then...dAMMNNNIT!

special mentions:

TEEEE Y!!!!!!
well tee bye, thanks so much fer the "expensive" call..which turned out that he had free minutes...@#$%^&*()_.....

but anywho...thank you Tee Bye for remembering my birthday..which turned out seeki reminded him....!@#$%^&*()_

seriously...like the infamous Marcus' line; with friends like you, who needs enemies?

!@#$%^&*()_T&H*A$N!K--Y@O%U*!_!@#$%^&*()_

Heavenly Gifts

2009-02-01T14:06:00.008Z

At long last, I'M TWENTY-ONE! the big 21!
i've always long-ed for this day to come.
It came, stayed fer a day and its gone now =(
and now i'm just..just..just.. 21..
no more 20 longing to be 21, no more 18 longing to be 21..
just plain ~twenty one~,
old and gray.
how i wish i could celebrate my 21st birthday ( receive all the gifts..heehee ) and still remain 20..but that's totally absurd!
now i know how Joey ( F.R.I.E.N.D.S) feels when he turned 30! i dont even wanna tnk what i'll be when i'm that age.arrghhhhh..not tnking bout it...

anywho...
talking bout 21st birthday gifts...
these are the gifts i've received thus far;

my parents got me a watch
(they bought it fer me 4 months ago..so i've been wearing it even before i turned 21..HEE HEE)

i would like to highlight a few of my favourites..

my sister bought me these BEAUTIFUL, MAGNIFICENT, EXQUISITE, CHARMING, CUTE lil cufflings..L.O.V.E them to bits!!
Thank YOU so much Ka-che!

Elizabeth on the other hand, handmade this beautiful, touching and meaningful scrapbook containing pictures of us being stupid, having fun, camwhoring and reminiscing bout the past..so SWEET..i'm loving it! cant say i loveD it cause i still DOOO!!!heehee

and and and and that's not the best part!
the best part is..
she collected messages from all my buddies and made them into cute affirmation pages...heehee..
OMG...so so so so so so lovely!

there's one from Bryan, one from Vincent,

another from cutie-pie Zhi and one from Guan Sing,

another from Soo Lim, one from Jenny dear

another from my darling sizzling hot Kum Yeen and blurry Kuan Chien

one each from my old debate buddies Rav and Vino, one from Stephen

last but never least..the divine Manda dear..

Thank You guys so much for all the lovely words..this is by far one of the best gifts EVER!hee hee..no money can buy this..though it is really costly to make one..especially fer the person who put them together..

so....

SPECIAL THANKS TO MY ZHI MUI..

Elizabeth Sonia Claire Monteiro
(ESCM = Enormous C--K Sucking Monster)
hee hee...
Love you to bits dear..MUAX

Mamma Mia Mania

2008-10-01T08:29:00.002+01:00

Call me crazy, call me a lunatic, but i'm on a "Mamma Mia!" craze right now! I'm just obsessed with it!LOL
It all started in the beginning of the year when my mom told me bout Meryl Streep starring in a musical! since then i had "geared" myself up and couldnt wait fer it to premiere in Malaysia.

All in all, i watched this movie 4 times in less than 5 days!LOL

September 26th, 2008
I started my Mamma Mia craze in the company of Joanne, Keng and James. We all had dinner at "apartment" at the curve before adjourning to Cineleisre for the 9.45pm session of Mamma Mia!
i was just blown away by the intensity of the movie. with Academy Award winning actress Meryl Streep ( one of my all time favourite actresses) in the lead role, former 007 star, Pierce Brosnan starring alongside with her and a great supporting cast that included Colin Firth ( the original Mr. Darcy), Christine Baranski and Julie Walters, to name a few, Mamma Mia! is a MUST watch for all ages!
The only downside of it was, i was sitting next to this really irritating wommon who SANG ALONG DURING THE MOVIE! SUCH A !@#$%^&*()_.
but well i enjoyed it still, just annoyed most of the time.

September 26th, 2008 / September 27th, 2008
The movie ended, and keng needed to return home. hence leaving Joanne and i. we decided to treat ourselves to coffee bean and just chill out.
but there was this sense unsatisfaction lingering in us and we just couldnt grasp it!
AND then it HIT us!WE WANTED MORE! we wanted more of MAMMA MIA!!
we headed back to cineleisure and caught the 11.50pm session of Mamma Mia!
this means, we watched the same movie TWICE, back to back, on the SAME day!LOL

September 28th, 2008
i remembered i promised my mom i'll watch Mamma Mia! with her. thus, as soon as i returned to ipoh on Saturday ( September 27th, 2008) i ushered my mom to the local cinema and had her reserve 3 seats for the movie ( my dad included). we decided we will watch it on September 28th, 2008 cause it was a Sunday and normally the crowd would be less due to monday, the next day, being a working day.
we caught the 9.45pm show and all 3 of us enjoyed it!
well my parents sure did since they practically grew up with Abba!

September 30th, 2008
eventhough i've downloaded the soundtrack way earlier, i still had a huge appetite for MORE of Mamma Mia!
knowing my dearest zhimui Elizabeth has not watched it, i called her out on a movie date!
hahah..YES we watched Mamma Mia..and I watched it AGAIN for the 4th time!LOL
well she loved it too and i definitely DID!

i know i know...it is CRAZEEEEEE ( with the capital C) to watch a movie 4 times in the cinema in less than a weeek. but dont worry, i shall never watch Mamma Mia! in the cinema no more cause i just downloaded the movie!HAHAH..

good Lord, i'm just nuts....WAKAKAKA

NEMO the DOG!

2008-09-29T14:56:00.003+01:00

Ladies and Gentlemen, i want you to meet the new addition to MY family...

Birth Certificate

Name : Nemo ( yes he is name after a fish!)
Age : 2months
D.O.B : July 2008
Race : "Rottweiler"
Owner(s) : The Yeaps..
Favourite Food/Drink : (currently) some shit ass expensive Australian made puppy milk which cost RM 24 for a container of 200gm.
Biological Parents : ~unknown~
Adopted parent(s) / Guardian : Nicholas Yeap

Being pathetic and whiny

2008-09-21T11:20:00.006+01:00

I use to have this friend who i found rather irritating, with all the whining, pathetic self tormenting and endless reassurance of self worth. i really wanted to go up to her and say;

"could you FREAKING get a GRIP and MOVE ON!? NOT EVERYTHING IS BOUT YOU! you self-centered BITCH!"

such an annoyance!
and then i found myself in this very predicament!

the question is; why did i feel and think like this?

you could see it both ways. one, i saw myself in her, and i hated what i saw!i hated being all self-pitied and centered. i hated being all whiny and pissy bout who i am!i just hated being such a low self esteemed pathetic BITCH! slapping her would be like slapping myself and demanding myself to GET A GRIP! "not everything is bout you! you irritating piece of shit!"

second; self-denial! i ousted her because i wanted not be associated with her due to her "whininess", eventhough i am like her myself. i had to prove to the world i'm not! people hated that part of her, hence i vowed i will hate that part of her too, just to safe my own sorry ass!!
i'm not a true friend and i deserved to be kicked in the ASS like REAL hard! now i feel like i'm the meanest person EVER!

and itz karma! by doing that, i thought it would be a wise decision, and with that i would find happiness?by doing so, i wanted to find adjustment and be "fitted"/"belonged" in society, but NO i did not! instead i lost a friend AND still felt shitty bout myself!
i use to tell people my motto; "go with the flow". now i realize it is this very mindset that got me into this cruel tornado of feelings and left me exposed, naive and immature! it is this fucking mindset that gave me the nickname of a people pleaser or a pushover!

i would do anything if i liked that person or wanted his or her trust/friendship! i would even betray my own principles, just to be "in common" with him or her. i'm like liquid, forming any shape of the bottle i'm in! pathetic huh?
eventhough that person is not a true friend, stupidly i would just blindly follow!
this led me to realize, why i hated spineless people! this is because subconsciously i am one myself!
and the worst thing is!i never know how to treasure my REAL friends!i would take them fer granted! people who are there fer me, through thick and through thin, for better or for worst! i would rather focus my energy of people who are less appreciative!

bottomline is; i hate being like this!i hate being sensitive,thinking everything is bout ME (with the capital M). i hate being all mushy and mooshy bout feelings and expressions. i hate whining! i hate being low self-esteemed, i hate having low self-confidence! i just hate myself!
sometimes i just feel like telling the world..I DONT CARE! i dont give 2 fucks bout what you tnk of me!i dont give a damn bout what you hate bout me! i am who i am and if you cant handle it then BEAT IT!

but can i do it? i dont know. guess i'm too self absorbed to even admit to myself that sometimes personality crashes and in this world, there are bound to be people who will just hate you for who you are! guess i'm too weak not bother bout the views and opinions of others..

i pray that the Lord will give me strength and determination to find my inner self and to grow from it. i pray that He would guide me through and lead me to the path that He wants me to lead and the path that He has prepared for me. i pray that He would help me find, me.
Amen.

reminiscence

2008-08-31T15:47:00.012+01:00

Good Lord! it's been ages since i last posted something! I have so many to blog bout and i dont even know where to start!
well loadsa stuff happened during my absence; exams, results (I PASSED EO3..well that's stale news), holidays, sister's graduation, sem 4 started, SRC workload..yada yada yada...
currently i'm just feeling rather emo and would like to rant it out..

its just hilarious how time flies and things change. My life in IMU fer the past 1 and a half years ( not that you care) was filled with so much emotions, events, feelings, expressions, drama, excitement..all mixed into a mixing bowl like a Betty Crocker Brownie mix. not that its as scrumptious as the brownie but itz really an experience. it has exposed me to so many interesting characters and scenarios that i dont even know where to begin! there are just so many people out there that are so different and, and, and they each have their own idiosyncrasies.

coming from a relatively small town called Ipoh, with a population of 1 to 2 million, and having spent my primary, secondary and foundation (form6) education in an institution called St. Michael's, IMU is certainly a different niche altogether. eventhough Ipoh is supposedly the third largest city in Malaysia, is a somewhat slow moving town. we dont get much "happenings" or chaos or loudness there. its a quaint town! like i've always told my friends, Ipoh is an ideal town to build a family and to grow old in. HAHA...look at one of its product, your's truly..hehe..(i bet some of you readers are coughing and having gag reflexes =P)..that's besides the point. the gist of it is, as a kid who spent most of his life (at least 18 years out of his 20 years) here in ipoh, i didnt get much variety if you get what i mean.

St. Michael's in her glamour and elegance!

a glimpse of what life was in St's Michael's

alright hear me out here ( before judging me)..i've been so comfy in my lil own niche, having friends that i've known since primary one, living the life that i've grown so acustomed to, thus you can say i've been sheltered fer 18 years! no doubt i've traveled quite a fair bit, but its a whole different story when you start living in a different environment rather than just visiting it fer say maximum of 10 days?
my point is, life here in KL is as fast as speed of light, as fierce as Christian Siriano, as demanding as Miranda Priestly and as Hip as..Usher? i dont know itz just different. and itz different in a really good way!hahah i'm in no way complaining! infact i'm rejoicing in it!

i'm just glad my parents decided to start their family in Ipoh and thus i got to experience the quaint, warm and most of the time, quiet living, and now i'm given the opportunity live a metropolitan life, here in KL, that really helped me grow and mature in more ways than another.

PERAK

IPOH

Ipoh Railway Station

DAmn i lost my trail of thoughts. well i feel the gist of this post is self explanatory, i'm here to actually reminisce bout the 1st day i set foot in KL to start my tertiary edcucation.

i remember i took the lift straight up to the top floor of IMU to register myself at this place called the MPH6 (its now chancellor's hall). i can still vividly remember, the elevator doors opened and i saw this line of students just queuing up. not knowingy what exactly to do, i just followed the crowd and lined up. guess who was standing in front of me!? hahah Marcus and Eric. i dont know why but they caught my attention ( maybe they look different, since they are singaporeans).
my turn arrived, i registered myself, collected my starting pack and proceeded to the next counter, where we had to try on lab coats and see which size fits us. STUPID me i took L ( which is like BIG fer me right now!). then everyone had to hang round and wait fer their turn to be called before entering MPH 6 to sign some documents and go through the ID photography session.

Marcus, Nicholas and Eric

well nicholas yeap was alone,like...ALONE with the capital A! he pathetically stood next to a miserable palm tree the whole time and started texting his zhimui elizabeth who was way back in Ipoh to complain and whine bout how lonely and fucked up his day was. while waiting fer her reply he actually started observing people.

ZhiMui ELIZABETH!

i remember distinctly this really out spoken and confident individual, which actually turned out to be darling aveena, exchanging contact information with 3 other individuals. cant rmb who they were but it was really funny! dont ask me why! i'm just eccentric!

AUNTIE VEEEEEE!!!!

then i saw this group of people consisting of like, 4 girls?and a guy?they seemed like they were having FUN!laughing and stuff..well they turned out to be SAMANTHA, Karmen, zhiven, Subashini and this other girl.

later..AHA a familiar face!this chap was from my rival high school and i've seen him in some debate tournament before. cant remember his name but he had his clique fer shizzle! and that clique of his turned out to be pretty miss Ada.HAHAH..

Vanessa and Ada
(Vanessa, i'm really sorry bout the picture, but that's the only picture i have of Ada..hehe)

bottomline was..i was freaking bored and out of place...OH OH OH...then i saw these 2 girls?(if i remembered it correctly it was 2)..it was just this 2 girls with dyed hair, one with a slight frizz to it and the other with large curls..it was VANESSA and rachel!haha...

darling VANESSA!

IT WAS MY TURN...(FINALLY), and so i entered the hall. infront of me was the chap i mentioned earlier who was from my rival school back in ipoh. i started making conversation with him inside, but it did not really last..maybe it was just my face i suppose..face problem!
oh well..i exited after my ID photography session.
it was then it donned on me that i really need to mingle!i crossed the bridge connected the 2 ends of the top floor and the 1st i saw was..samantha or karmen, either one i cant remember,
and i said;

nicholas : Hi, mind if i joined you guys?
samantha : sure sure, absolutely not.
(nicholas took his seat)
nicholas : HI! i'm nicholas! and you are?
samantha : i'm samantha. this is subhashini ( pointing to the girl sitting opposite)
(karmen, zhiven and zhiven's friend which i dont remember her name walks in)
samantha : this is nicholas!
karmen : HI! i'm karmen.
zhiven : Hi! im zhiven.
(zhiven looked at the others and said;)
zhiven : damn hungry la!letz go for lunch!
everyone : yeah letz go fer lunch!
(nicholas feels damn awkward cause he just sat down and suddenly everyone was going fer lunch!afraid that he was intruding and didnt wanna self invite, nicholas kept real quiet and looked at his shoes =S )
samantha : nicholas would you like to join us?
(samantha's face looked like she was just extending the invitation out of courtesy, not really wanting to extend it)
nicholas : erm, no itz alright you guys go ahead. i wont wanna be intruding.
samantha : no you are not. come join us. we are going to be batchmates already!

Top: nicholas and zhiven
Middle : Vanessa
Bottom : Chialee, Rachel and Seeki

(L to R) Samantha, Chialee, Seeki, Karmen

hahah so sweet la samantha! so yeah we went fer lunch!at 1st they wanted to dine out of campus but due to circumstances i dont remember we dined in!hahah.....well those where the days la..
i;m just so glad i got to know everyone...most importantly through this conversation, SAMANTHA!LOL...cause well if samantha would have "rejected" my presence at the table, history would have been different..so THANK YOU LA SAMANTHA...LOVE YOU LOADS LA

okie..bedtime i'll continue my boring reminiscence later...NIGHT!

just a preview of what my next post would be bout!

A Tribute to Tze Yang

2008-05-30T03:54:00.007+01:00

(the letter "F" ...Friendship)

One of my dearest friend Tze Yang Chin (ty) is leaving fer Australia on Sunday morning and i can't make it fer his farewell or his Sunday morning departure, cause i'm stuck in Ipoh.

Ty has been a very dear friend. He was the one that kept me sane throughout the Malaysian Elections back in March. We were like freaks, checking and discussing the results over msn, adding some drama to it now and then. He also kept me company during late night studyings, keeping me awake through constant mind boggling msn messages.
I'm sure gonna miss this msn buddy of mine! hope the 4 hours difference wont change this!hehe..

well we sure are gonna miss his constant lateness and delay when ever itz time fer meals and also his "McShit" shirt which you can admire in one of those pictures below.

ty in his "McShit" shirt, enjoying his bowl of "toufufah" during his trip to ipoh.

The Classic Moment.
see the Big Mac ty is holding on? that 's his 2nd! the 1st was lacking a piece of bread. "Chicken" ty didnt wanna change it cause he had already gobbled 3/4 of it down.
hahah well leave it to Seeki and i!
we helped him change "de what's left of his 1st big mac" to a proper BIG MAC!
(though the waitress did give us the look/glare when she glanced at the 1/4 big mac that was left!..hahah screw it..we got ty's money's worth!)

ty's 21st at Tony Roma's

well Ty, you will surely be missed but i'm sure one day in the future our paths will cross again..

~HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY AND DON'T GET WASTED!~

A Lost to the tennis circuit..

2008-05-22T10:18:00.003+01:00

This might be stale news, but i have to mention it in my blog..

The tennis world was in a state of disbelieve with the lost one of the greatest tennis stars ever.

On May 14, 2008, Justine Henin announced her retirement at a tender age of 25, after 10 years of spectacular professional involvement in this circuit.
As one of the only definite winners over the William sisters (whom i'm never fond of), Justine Henin has given her audience such a refine and profound game, coupled with endless excitements.

Standing only at 1.65m, Henin powered her way through to the number 1 spot in women's tennis, geared with a flawless single-handed backhand (a style seldom used and practiced in today's tennis world), a powerful serve despite her petite size and stature, and perfect ground strokes.
With a rare combination of power and finesse, this enabled Henin to conquer every surface possible.

Although born a Belgium, Justine Henin currently resides in Monte Carlo, Monaco.
With a career earnings of $19,461,375 (excluding endorsements and appearance fees),
Henin has 7 Grand Slam titles secured under her belt,
1 from Melbourne Park, 4 from Roland Garros and 2 from Flushing Meadows.

The retirement decision from this former world number 1, is undoubtedly a major shock, both to the tennis world and to her loyal fans.

*you will be dearly missed*